I am so dead..

I am so stressed out... so dead!!!! All because of my PC crash.. It re-formatted my floppy.. MY lifeline is completely gone.. I have to start all over from scratch, unless Mr saved it.. Either way, I am half dead... I can't access my e-mails from home.. THis is so stupid.. I am so dead.. Why is it that we become so dependant on computers just to have them dying on us at crucial times..

Let me pray... Gimme a moment...

Oh god... This is too big a challenge for me.. I am so stressed.... I almost punched this monitor screen for failing on me... But god... That will be too painful for me... I almost puke my insides out to kill myself and end this misery but god.. that will be too hard for me to do...

I wanted to just complete my report on time because, god it is important for me.. I need every single mark to help me.. I need everything, every luck, every blessing, every charm, every best wishes I can grab this semester... God please...

But it's also my fault, I never did spent time with you, god... I spent endless time in front my computer to do everything else but see you... I spent infinite time to spend my day with everyone but you... Please forgive me God.. I should count myself lucky for you gave me a chance and not take my life through natural disaster like the tsunami that has killed many mankind. I hope you forgive their sins too... I should spend more time with you.. The time that I can never find, but the time that is always there for anything else..

Yours Jun...

Sorry if being religious for a moment leaves you a frown on your face or make you shrug your shoulders... but I just have to type this one out.. I just have to.. TO make me feel a little bit better... Life is short.. You just never know when your precious life is going to be taken away. I need time alone... I need to keep moving in the right track, but I often stray and get lost.. Everytime I get lost, I found someone guiding me... But that someone is not always there to keep guiding me... One day, I have to walk alone.. I have to learn to get up after every fall, to learn to keep moving no matter how strong the opposing wind is blowing... I have to be strong and keep strong...

I hope my strenght remains to make me be a better person.. TO be able to stay calm to solve any problems in any situations...

Help me out of this mess...

Bad computer days still haunting me..