My performance review...

Finally, the meeting is here... after like postponing in thrice...

It was really ordinary.. A bit motivated but not entirely. They complained about my punctuality and the lack of urgency and initiative. Heck all thanks to the lack of motivation!

Anyway, I state all my concerns that need to be raised. Felt a little better but not entirely. They extended my probation period till end of year. What a lamer.

I hoped and prayed for LTA to come back to me with a concrete offer. Pray for me too...

I know that communication problems and difficult people exists everywhere.. But I think it's more worth being in a big company subsidised by the government. There's more benefits and more prospect in every sense of the word.

Tell me what ya all think. Dunno why, I almost cried during the meeting.. It kindda hurts that they know yet not do anything. I dunno why I'm being the same old temperamental emotional baby once again. I hate her.. I want the other girl who's forgiving and not take things that did not matter too seriously. I want her back.. Why am I returning to my old self again?

I hate being the old me.. Or maybe it's just that part-of-the-month thingy. Argh.. Doesn't matter anymore. I just hope and pray for a better day to come. Another tender came, due in two weeks. Better get my head down and do it willingly and promptly like how I used to.

I have to be good for the next month at least. I miss Z, not meeting him till he comes back on Monday.. how sad... how lonely.. But I have something to look forward to... I am going to the BBQ - end of season social event - at Andy's place with all the boys. And I'll do my invites to all of them whilst I'm there with them.

I hope everythings goes smoothly. Don't need anything to crop up at the last minute. Was thinking of doing another bike practical, but I think I better wait till my body recovers fully.

At times when I need the tender loving care from someone, there's always noone there.. Sad, but hey, there's always tomorrow, isn't there?

And oh.. I lost my wallet... with money and my identity card in it. I hope it's just being misplaced somewhere in my room and not really lose it.. I need the money!!

This is all for now. Till later~