All I want is...

I am not in my best health, neither am I in my best moods. It was okay at the beginning, I was doing things just fine..

I texted him. I was so looking forward to seeing him later. But all he could convey is to ask me to rest at home. I was ashamed to say that I cried. I cried because of this small matter. It's strange that I've grown this weak.

All I want is to see him and be with him, and all he did is to ask me to rest at home. It's for the good, yet here I am so heartbroken crying for nothing at all.

Yes, I'm crying here at home.. I probably would die in my sleep with tears still flowing. My head is spinning, my heart broken and bleeding, my mind at a whirlpool, my soul at lost... All I want is a hug that can make me feel better.. Where's that hug? Where's that kiss that can heal all pain?