I feel like...

I feel like shouting, I feel like crying, I feel like I'm all alone. Once again, these breakdowns are coming back to me! I feel like running, yet I have no energy to do so. My brains are in a mess, my heart is throbbing hard, I dunno what I am going through, I dunno what I want, I dunno what I have, I dunno what to look for. I am confused. I know something is missing, yet not know what is missing.

I need to go out and go running with no stop. I am driving myself insane! I need someone to talk to, to let everything out, and just walked right out. Yet I can't bring myself to do that for I can't bring myself to break anyone's heart or hurt anyone's feelings. I need to be heard, yet I can't find my voice. I need to let go, yet I am still holding on too tightly. Those cramps are coming back, haunting me of someone's death, haunting me of my past mistakes, haunting me with people cursing me.

I want to just set myself free from everything, yet I can't bring myself to deserve that little thing I ought to have. It hurts. I can't please everyone, and noone can please me enough.

Here and now, I'll leave not knowing my destination, not knowing which path to take, not acknowledging the risk I'm taking. Leave me alone, to mend my heart of broken pieces.