The mystery of missing entries

Wonder why the long wait for this entry? Well, once again... My precious computer crashed itself down to Dooms Day. It's something pretty expected to happen sometime soon in many ways.

My mom said she would call up her brother and persuade him to see and hopefully repair my precious to her best health once again. I feel so so restless without her breathing, without her face glowing back at me, the feeling of loneliness struck me hard whenever she shuts herself down like that. This is truly intense, I never believed I would feel so strong for my precious computer.. Oh Juli... please come back to life!! :'(

The weekend, spent teaching in the morning... then went home to see what's wrong with Juli... but there's nothing I can do. Texted Mr, and he picked me up and we went to Brewerkz to join the Bucks Gang and watch the Super12 Finals, Crusaders vs Waratahs. Crusaders won with score 35-25. Then the night was just wasted. Mr was totally gone by 9pm. Yet he refuse to come home with me. Oh well...

We are suppose to have a Sunday run around, but the rain refuse to let us and it had to be cancelled. I spent the day trying to soothe Mr, trying to forget what happened last night. Trying to just make the day better. Then it's time for me to go home. Another day gone, another day to look forward to...

Today was rather predictable, I guess. Went to the neighbourhood shops to get my supply of 'pampers', breakfast cereals and milk. Since I'm near the MRT, I topped up my ez-link again. Then joined Mr at the internet cafe just about 15minutes ago, and gonna have lunch together then I'm gonna meet Sharm and Linda to have a few games of pool. The time of meeting is always not confirmed till the last minute. I would say that we would end up meeting at 5pm or so.

I'll be meeting my lady friend at 10.30am tomorrow. Then meet Mr for lunch, I guess.. After that, God knows what's gonna happen. I have hockey training tomorrow. And I must prepare for my first day on Wednesday. The issues I need to bring up before signing up the contract of employment.

You know, my eyes keep wandering around to things that are on sale. I keep wanting to shop and spend. I can see my $$$ flying away. This is almost like a cronic disease! I'm sick, but I can't help shopping.. Help!

I'm feeling goood...

Everything is falling to its places and I'm feeling good... I waited the whole morning for that DHL package to arrive, they said it would arrive anytime between 10am to 12pm. Guess what time they arrived? Just a little after 12pm! It is just a few minutes but that is still late.

Then I met Mr for lunch, then went to BB. Planned to get my latest passport photos, then enrol to take up my theory test under PDI. Being a shoes-freak, I laid my eyes on some shoes planning to just survey the price.. I ended up buying a pair- I wanted to buy another but held it back. I succeed on that one. Hehe.. And being a good friend, I surveyed the prices of suit jackets for Sharm. Once I set my eyes on the affordable ones, I gave her a call and told her right away.

Then I went to BBDC, funny but I was nervous. It felt like the first day in school almost! Haha.. It went smoothly without much hassle. Once registered, I booked a date for my BTT. There was not a free slot in June!! I had to wait till July! My.. oh my.. I wished I had enrolled earlier.. Then we went back to BB and bought two tickets to Madagascar.

Take a click at if you haven't heard of Madagascar. Anyway, it is about 4 close zoo animals, Ben Stiller is the King of New York, a hyperactive zebra (Chris Rock), a hypochondriac giraffe (David Schwimmer), and a diva of a hippo (Jada Pinkett Smith) . It all started with the Penguins wanting to escape the zoo and be in the wild. Then in the midst of digging their way out, the Penguins find themselves in Marty the Zebra's terrirory and told him about their plans. Upon this, Marty start to imagine life in the wild without truly know what it is about. He then told his bestfriend, Alex the Lion and friends, Melman the Giraffe and Gloria the Hippo. They were shocked to hear this and tried to advice him against it. And then....

I guess I don't need to go into the extreme of details, do I? Anyway, Madagascar is about having a great laugh with the family! It is easy, simple and really really funny! I can safely say that the whole cinema was roaring in laughter throughout the hour!

Another day of my life...

Sorry for the many days of silence with no updates. A few things happened in my absence from blogging.

The weekend before I was offered a job was wisely spent. Went to watch the Hurricanes against the Crusaders on Saturday. Hurricanes was robbed as Mr would say with a 47-8 score. My Sunday was dedicated for my big extended family. Wasn't much of the weekend I had in mind. The kids are running wild!!! Nadiah was constantly asking for more than what she gets. The rest were all just being kids.

I find Hilmy really good at handling kids younger than him. He's learning to give in a whole lot. I can't help smiling when I saw the protectiveness of a brother in him when Shahril pulled and hit Nayli. He sided his sister and told his mama that Shahril pulled his sister. That is such a sight!!

Monday came and it's time for me to send Mariam home, I then saw the jealousy and possessiveness in Hilmy. He played with my fingers and asked me why I am going with them and not him. Why I am going with Shahril and not follow him home. He is seriously so so cute!

Tuesday was another day spent with Mas and her two kids. The kids are now closer with me. It is good, but bad at the same time. It just means that if Mas refuse to carry Nayli, she will turn to me and asked me to carry her. And may I remind you, she is about 18kg. She lost about 4 kg when she fell sick and had her asthma attack.

Wednesday.. the day I was offered a job. I found myself so so deeply in love with the Bucks RFC!! Mr and I went to Dubliner to watch The State of Origin- Queensland vs New South Wales. The whole bucks team followed. It was really great and felt very warm and welcoming, I felt like it was a family gathering.. It was really great! After sometime, I started giving everyone a back massage. Just felt like doing so as a way to say thank you to all of them who made my day! I am the happiest girl that day! And I'm in love all over again with the Bucks RFC!

Today, Mr picked me up, can you believe it? He didn't slept the whole night! He stayed to watch Liverpool vs AC Milan! Then I met my bestfriend, Sharm. I didn't know I actually missed talking to her that much till we actually sat and talked the whole evening!

We spoke about everything that had happened/is happening in our lives. We shared the same ground most of the time. And I truly enjoyed talking to her. Our friendship is something I truly treasure. She is one of the few girlfriends whom I liked talking to. She is one different woman. We are so different yet the same, so similar yet so different.

And.. I felt really good today. Everything that happened last year, last month, last week, yesterday and today is just meant to happen, and I will not run away from it. Instead, I will deal with it no matter how hard it is to deal with it. I will be strong and stay strong.

Oh, I love Mr... I may not be sure of where we are going, but I'm going to enjoy our moments together while it lasts. You will always have that special place in my heart, the exact place where I'll belong in your heart. I love you xxx.

I've got a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeay!!! I've been offered a job! And they want me to get my driving license soon!

I can't think of anything now! Too happy, too excited! Yeah.. I've got a proper, permanent job! Yeay!!!

TGIF

Thank Goodness It's Friday... ermm.. is it, really? I dunno who came up with that phrase.. But well, today was a more like a cruising Friday. I prepared some stuff to teach tomorrow. Was home all morning and afternoon, only got out at about 1600hrs.

Out to meet Mr, to watch the Super 12 Semi-Finals : Hurricanes vs Crusaders. It's on at 2030hrs. So we had dinner first.

I booked a taxi in advance just so there's no repeated situations of waiting for a taxi for an hour before getting one. It was cruising today like I said earlier, no rush, not much of any delays, no trouble... It was just cruising away, and in no time, I am back home.

I texted my sisters a lot today, basically informed them of my graduation ceremony which is held on 12th July, Tuesday from 1430 to 1630hrs. I will have to get extra tickets after 30th May to prevent any disappointments. Need to confirm numbers tomorrow.

I also texted Mariam to remind her that I left a note for her girls, so that she's more or less ready to guide the girls through the set of instructions I've left them.

In more than one ways, I'm so looking forward to being with my family all over again. For now, I'm looking forward to Super 12 Finals tomorrow. Then Sunday's family day for me. I will be home all of Sunday to spend my 24 hours with my beloved sisters, nieces and nephews. Mayhem as it may be, I'm still proud to be an Aunty to many and I'll always be proud to be one.

Updates.

I don't know why I didn't post on Wednesday. I probably was too tired after touch rugby that night.

I went to an interview in the morning, it went fairly well. Then I meet up with Mr at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel to feast on the NZ food buffet. It was yummy! The lamb, wow, so lovely! Most of all, I love the dessert! The creme brulee was just superbly delicious! I had more than just one dessert to be honest. It was just so irresistable as I was much of a dessert person.

Went over to my place to write up my Thank You letter for the interview, then off to HV to post the letter. Then off to touch.

Touch attendance are improving so so much. There were so many girls as compared to the first time I appear for training. I used to be the only girl who came for training. And now, wow.. Let me list them if I do remember, there were Mel, Ally, Fay, Esther, Inaka, Rachel, oopsie daisie.. I forgot the rest of the names that came last Wednesday. The other girls who didn't attend last training were Viv, Nisa, Zuraidah, Judy.. and I guess there are some more.

I think we have more than enough to make a Bucks Womens' team now! I was covered with mud last wednesday. My shirt, shorts, legs, arms... all smeared with mud. It's almost a whole body mud wrap! All in the name of fun, and fitness! It was a great run around.

Then Thursday came.. ermm.. today... what happened today? I remember going to cyber cafe, then lunch.. then watched a Few Good Men then I went off to Mariam's. Talked to her about her friend wanting to take me as her children's tutor in Maths and English starting June 6th. Then talked a bit about the car license thingy. Mariam actually spoke to mom a bit about it. No wonder she took a bit more positive note yesterday, talking about working for 2 or 3 months before taking the license.. Oh well, I think I would take the teory ones before I start working actually, was trying to find out how much it would cost to take private tutor/instructor. I heard it's a little cheaper, faster and more flexible in some ways.

Actually I need to go to BBDC and find out more about the procedure. Just so that I can put all the cards on the table with more certainty, i.e instead of putting up some wild cards, I'd rather find out and put real solid cards and make sure of what I want to do.

I need to prepare the topics I need to teach for Saturday, all of tomorrow morning so that I can go and watch the Super 12 later tomorrow evening without any much worries.

Rain Rain and raining...

It wasn't really raining when I woke up or when I left my house for breakfast. I only started raining when I sank my teeth into my waffles. It rained profusely for awhile then steadily drizzle till I got the bus and got back home to get an umbrella and to get a thick jacket to wear.

Then I left my place again to see my lady friend. We spoke for an hour. I met Mr at Cathay Cineleisure after and order my lunch cum dinner. Then we went to watch XXX The next level. It was so full of action and thrill. It was really cool.

The rain made me sleepy and more tired than I should be. I guess that's it for an update today. Composition entry is starting. It's cool, really. I'd be writing more about my childhood. And once everyone get the hang of posting entry, writing and had improved their writing skills, I would expose and publitisize them to all my loyal readers. My sisters are a little rusty in writing English, so I would have to be a tutor and correct the mistakes and help them improve. So are the kids.. One can only improve and get better.

Like Mr always say, "Those who seek shall find. "
I'd say, "There's no finding without trying."

Good night now.

Hockey training

Wake up at the sound of rain drip dropping on the roof, splashing on the ground, the sound of the wind.. Oh... All I want is to sleep the day by... Oh well, I woke up early still....

Went to HV to get Mr's emergency thingy, get lunch at Coffee Bean... Yeah.. We, well actually it's more like Mr, is a true regular customer of Coffee Bean @ HV. I am just the seconder, or shall I say so. Then I got a call... the call I so wanted to get. Not gonna spill the beans out yet.. Let's see what happens when it happens.

Then I went to the internet cafe and do some research.. this and that, then went to Cold Storage to get Mr's new supply of talc powder. Then we went home. And meet again for dinner. We had a naughty piece of dinner at BK. It's really naughty and I'll try my very best to make sure Mr's not gonna eat any naughty stuff for the rest of the week, maybe into next week as well. Then He bought the Economist, classic cover photo! Then we went to Cold Storage again to get supplies for Chris, basically Colgate and body soaps. Then head home, and off I go for my hockey training.

It was an okish training session, I didn't really look forward to it as much as I used to anymore. I don't quite enjoy it anymore. I had lost some sense on enthusiasm for hockey. It wasn't as exciting or fun anymore. Oh well, we played an hour of just games. I wasn't playing any better, just a few good pressure and tackles. But that was it. I screwed up everything else. Oh well.. Not my day for hockey, I guess.

It was still good sweating it all out, though. That's about the best thing to come out with from any sports. You simply sweat everything off and just walk home stinking. Haha..

I need to see her tomorrow. Oh my, I'm so sore and tired! Lucky the appointment with her is in the afternoon, 2pm... I'd probably sleep walk if it's in the morning. Stragely though, my body is tired but my eyes are fresh and my mind is active. In other words, I can't quite make myself sleep now. Ermm.. Maybe I'll attempt to write a composition and type myself to sleep. Hehe..

Good night, darlings!

Bucks vs Team Thailand

Tight game, we lost but had loads of fun!! The Thai team had a family playing, the husband, wife and two of their boys playing!! It's so cool to know that a whole family is having fun, doing fitness and compete as a family. How cool is that?

I can't write much today.. I hurt my finger and it's really really painful.. Dunno why. But it hurts.. Ouchie!! Anyways, today is great! I created e-mail accounts for Mariam's girls and blogger accounts so they can contribute! Can't wait to show them how it's done.

The family blog address? Nah.. too soon to distribute. Will expose them when there's more form to it..

For now, Good night!

Super Saturday

Like the usual Saturdays, I went to teach the two girls.. Been bored though I'm paid. Tuitees not being on their toes much as Mid-Year Exams are over, both of them don't see why I'm still coming to teach.. Oh well, neither can I.. I am not a teacher who knows how to teach a new topic all together, I'm more of a tutor who guide those who were slower or requires coaching to bust up those mathematical skills.

Anyway, I went to Turf City all ready to take on the Under-16 girls.. Oh boy, don't bother to ask who wins.. Those young girls versus the Bucks(I can say all of us are minimum 5 years older except the two golden treasures we have on our team). Tight game considering the age difference, haha.. We lost by a couple though.

Then some of us went over to terrorize the big boys' team. It is great playing with better players who never got sick of giving you tips and pointers to play better. Rugby guys are so well-known for being just that. I got loads of pointers and tips from these two guys who bloody know what they are doing and how to go about doing them. They never shove me aside or anything like that, instead they guide me through, talking to me during the game, getting me involved so I do mistakes to learn from. When I asked them about something, they really get into explaining it and teach you how to do it, step by step complete with reasoning! They are simply great! I truly have fallen in love with the whole BUCKS RFC touch rugby team!!

We played from 4pm till about 6++. Then the boys went for a couple of beers and I just sat there gobbling up all the fries that Mick had bought. Haha.. Oh, and I paid the subs to Richard Z already. Student subs are $50 whilst working adults pay $150. I believe this is for a year. Now, I'm completely broke.. But it is worth every penny being with the Bucks. With the Bucks, it's all about building your own fitness, loads of fun and simply socializing with everyone. All are welcome!!

I had fun, and now am geared for more touch rugby. I have a game in the morning tomorrow, against the Thailand team! I can't wait for that to happen!! Forget Hockey, I am all about touch rugby now. No, am not quiting hockey.. Who says I'm a quitter? I will still be in Hockey, hitting and all.. Just maybe I will be more focussed on touch rugby now since I'm given more acknowledgement in that area.

Gonna head for a well-deserved rest... The bed is calling me...

Good night, folks!

Unlucky Me

Woke up with a blocked nose. Laze around a little. Then went over to Holland Village via Mr's. And guess what happened? I was so unlucky, I got stung by a wasp twice!! Can you believe it? How it happened.. hmmm... We entered Coffee Bean, thinking of what to eat.. Then I felt something at my back, on my right shoulder.. So I used my left hand to feel what is it that is giving me some kind of itch.. And I got the shock of my life when i felt something alive and gave me a sting, and a sting again which gave me the ultimate shock..

All I could say was, "Ouch.. What the.. what is that? Ouchie Ouch!!! My finger's numb, painful.. Ouch.. My back.. Look at my back..." Mr said it's a wasp and it had just stung me.. There was this woman that had been really really helpful with what to do.. She was in the queue in front of us. She went and see the area where I got stung and advice me on what to do about it. I iced my whole finger and had ice put on my back as well. My finger grew 1.5 times the original size. My back wasn't that bad.

We still ate, constantly looking for any sign of allergy to the sting. The woman noted that I should look out if the swell grew even bigger or if I have trouble breathing within the hour, I should seek medical help immediately. An hour past, nothing... Just the little bit of swelling. Then we went on the internet to check about it. I am okay, unless the swelling or itch got worse by the day, otherwise, the swelling would normally go away within 2 days.

So, no worries!!! I snoozed most of the day away.. Then went to Touch Rugby training... Yes.. despite the swollen finger, I still play. Trying to sweat my sickness out actually. A whole lot of girls came today, which is great! We did some drills for the first half hour, then played games till 9pm. It is great, a whole lot more tips for me to take note and learn. I love touch rugby!!!

Felt so much better now. My finger's still a bit numb. And I've got an interview in the morning tomorrow, so gonna shower then hit the sack, or maybe stay online for a bit while drying my hair then visit Lala Land.

Gute Nacht! See ya at Lala Land.

Got rid of one bug and another bug came along..

Fever's out of my body, but running nose is coming to attack, sore throat here's to stay.. But because of this cough, sneeze combination, i can feel my temperature rising a little.

I hate being sick.. It's so SICK!! Urgh...

So much for an update..

Been recuperating to better health

The bugs have got the best of me... Down with really really sore sore throat on Friday. Since then, my health had decided to go down the hill... I got a bad cough and slight fever by Saturday morning. My fever shoots up even more on Sunday... The cough got worse with worse sore throat. I couldn't accept anything other than soft munchies like porridge or soup.. My appetite was that of a mouse almost. I kept pumping gallons of water, vit c tablets, garlic pills, strepsils.. but the sore throat and coughing won't persist. My fever relent and went off today, which is good news.. The sore throat of my.. The torture of the month, i must say!!

Oh well, a brief report of my torturing weekend with the bugs on my back which caused my lost of updated updates on my blog.

Here goes:
Friday, 6th May. Mr went to a meeting, then we met for lunch at the Cafe Di Rio. Then I went to this so-called intro to this talent company at Takashimaya. It was crap. They tell you who they work for, advertisement, media with BMW, Sony, etc. Then they say we are to go to the classed on every Sunday for 6 weeks from 3-4.30pm, on our 3-inch heels, and make-up utensils. The make-up accessories must be one of the two most expensive make-up you can find in the world, and if you don't have these, you can purchase it for $550.. What the??!! Oh well, if you can't afford to pay the lump sum, they actually provide payment via installments.. Like it helps me.. I just smiled and walk away once it's over. Then we went to watch the Kingdom of Heaven. It is about the war in the 18th century between the Christians and the Muslims. It's great.. but a little on the bloody side. But it's overall a great one to watch if you're after history and war.. Then we head to Holland Village to watch Super 12.. But i went home before 8pm as I don't feel pretty well, sore throat starts to dominate my body.... Hit the sack once at home.

Saturday,7th May, taught the girls at Jurong West. The younger one(Ogy's daughter) was really enthu and was on her toes about questions and things she wanna know and practice in Maths. We were both coughing throughout the hour and half. Suppose to watch/play touch after but my body had turned down the invite. I would have a great time coz Mr said all the girls including the two(first-timers) who had joined last week. I went to get my bowl of porridge from the Banquet at JP and head straight home after. I couldn't think of anything other than much rest and sleep that I so needed. But no luck as the kids are around so I can only sneak in 45minutes nap before they disturb me..
The saying of the day: Kids remain kids, you can scold them, hurt their feelings but they will always come right back at you at a time such that, your mind wanted to throw them into the sea and forget them but the heart pity their naiveness and wished you were back at their age with no worry or whatsoever, at this thought you always give in.

Sunday, 8th May, Rained so heavily I could feel the gust of strong winds with the windows of my room closed shut. The weather was perfect for me to sleep all day without moving a single muscle. But the kids are awake already.. My niece, Nadiah, called to talk to me.. I was murmuring throughout the conversation as it hurts to say a single word, that was how bad my sore throat is. To think that the weather and my health could make me stay at home, I didn't.. Haha. Basically because Mr already bought tickets to watch the Michael Flatley's Lord of The Dance concert.. It cost $112 each person, so I rather watch it then to waste it.. Mr pick me up at 1pm right at my carpark. Then we head to JP to get my bowl of porridge and Mr's lunch. Then another taxi to the Kallang Indoor Stadium. The ticketing people are so inefficient. They could have just asked what tickets are we collecting instead of telling us that there's no record of purchase. Well, it's our fault that we got the venue wrong but they could have helped us better! Oh well, we finally got the tickets... Oh, I forgot to mention that I kept going to the ladies for a splash for like every half hour! Anyway, Lord Of The Dance was marvellously great!!! Those feet of all the dancers.. My.. simply magical!! It's like a spell is casted to everyone, you simply ended up looking their feets and imagine it's yours and you suddenly seemed so involved in the dance and story that they are telling. It's just wow! It's my first dance concert and wow... It's just magical! I like the music they play as well. Check their webbie: www.lordofthedance.com After all that.. We went to Cafe Di Rio at Scotts Road.. The service and everything you'd want from a restaurant is there in this cafe. It's great compared to what it used to be last time(Cosy Cafe- the one with good food but crap service). Different management, different owner. Great! Then we head home for a much needed snooze.

Monday, 9th May, Felt much better. Fever is gone. But coughing out flemn- a good sign(Mr said so). Sore throat is still there, couldn't feel any difference of any sign of improvement or otherwise. I slept well, went to pay my internet bill and topped up my ez-link card.. met Mr and went back home for another row of snooze.. Then we went to catch The Interpreter.. A great movie, Sean Penn and Nicole Kidman was really great! Then we went to eat at this foodcourt at Centre Point. I ate porridge again. Then head home for my little snooze.. And up after an hour or maybe more.. Type out my updates.. And now, head to bed... for my beauty sleep.

Good night!

Another Terrific Thursday

It was raining all afternoon, I wish I could just sleep and not move a muscle. Today went well, I guess... Supposed to meet Mr at 0930hrs at Coffee Bean, but guess what? I wasn't there till 1030hrs... How punctual can I get, huh? Mr waited for an hour for my appearance.. Oh my... And he's not anything near angry.. He was cool about it. How nice can a man get... Oh, another reason why I love him so much...

Then we went to the bank to get his emergency cash thingy.. Can you believe it? His card is still not ready despite the 3 weeks long wait... Oh my!!!! They better fix it fast. Then we went home for an hour or so snooze, not easy I tell ya... haha...

Then I went to meet Steffen. He changed the venue to Somerset MRT, I knew we were heading to Emerald Hill.. We went to Ice-Cold. Ordered drinks, food and played a game of pool. With no doubt, I lost.. haha.. Then we chat and chat about our life for the previous year that had past effortlessly. He paid for everything. I only have a dollar share for the whole night. Hahaha..

We had about 7 glassed of drinks each, my usual Vodka Redbull and his Gin Tonic. And a game of pool, $2. Plus chicken wings.. Then we watched this group of guys playing while chatting away. He seemed to have great time partying all the time! Haha.. He said the company is cutting down on his expat terms a whole lot this year, whatever that means. He's flying tonight to Germany tonight itself.

We did fine throughout. Fun that was it. Then he had to go, catching a plane home... So he got a taxi right away, and I attempted to get the train to somewhere and then the bus home. I did fine.. Haha. I would have dropped by Chris' if I was sober enough. But i think I can call it a night by now. I am slowly recovering.. but my head is a little bit heavy and not close to healthy at the moment.

But hey, I can type my story so i can read whatever I had typed tomorrow and judge it myself. I texted Mr, I just can't say enough I love yous to him. I simply do love Mr so much!

Being friends with your exes is so cool. Haha.. It is really.... I hope to be able to stay friends with Mr if we ever go our separate ways. I really do. He's too precious to just forget about. I love you, Mr.. I really do love you.. So much.. So much. I wish to love you for the rest of my life xxx.

Water! Water! I need water! I am dehydrated....

Good night, folks.

Touch Rugby is 110% better than Hockey!!!

Who says so? I said so... I don't understand why I still go for my hockey trainings religiously knowing that I won't be chosen for one reason or another. And knowing that someone who barely came for any trainings get chosen to play for the league everytime. Do I not deserve the least to play for them?

Oh well, touch was great today. I nearly scored not once, not twice but thrice.. But yes, I was touched at the very last minute.. I was almost there!!! I screamed in disbelief!!! I wanna score.. Urgh.. But worry not! I took revenge.... I touched Mr, Dave and Mr again all at the last minute!!! Hahaha... Isn't revenge so sweet?

Oh ya.. Guess what? Mr ramped into Mel(the new girl who joined last week). She almost choked, I think.. Mr is bad... He ramped into women.. He better not ramped into me in that manner.... He better not..

After everyone was drenching in sweat.. include me my shorts are soaked and so is my shirt but being me, my sweat evaporate fast and so I don't appear as sweaty.. The boys? They sweat like pouring rain... Oh continue the sentence.. After all that sweating off, we called it a night. Greg, Lucy, Andy, Mr and I got a lift from Adyn.

I still can't belief it.. How can all these guys have so much more speed and stamina than me? How do these guys do it? Don't age catch up on them? My.. Maybe they grew up with sports and thus got that speed and stamina in their genes unlike people like me who never knew the joy of sports until we are like 15 or something..

Oh well, just another reason to get out there and win the battle of speed and stamina.. and time for me to get in the shower!

Good night, folks.

Hockey Training @ CCAB

I slept in more and more these days! I woke up just when Mr came over, and he has a glimpse of what my morning hair look like after all the sleep I had, and yes.. the mess on my bed as well.. Oh.. I'm so embarassed....

Then he used my computer, supposingly to do his Covering Letter, but ended up checking his e-mails and such. Oh well, not like I always do what I say I wanna do. Haha.. So no complaints. We left my place around noon to get lunch. I made Mr go via Chris. I am edgy today.. I was irritated without knowing why... We had a really really naughty lunch... We had a 12" pizza to share, then Mr ordered another 12" pizza and i orderend a Tiramisu. I could hardly believe that Mr ate like 1.5 pizzas today.. Oh my... The naugthiest lunch I saw Mr had. Then we went to Coffee Bean to get our usual tea. Almost every staff there know us already.. haha.. Very friendly, I like them.

Then we went back to Chris to watch a DVD. Ended up watching 'American Beauty'. 'We Were Soldiers" can't be played, dunno why.. Then i went off for my training at CCAB. It was nice to see people I know after so long.. haven't been going for much trainings last week. I often see Raiha checking out Mat Nur.. Haha.. Maybe they should be together.. Oh well, not for me to decide. As we walked to the bus stop, I suddenly feel like I'm invinsible, I suddenly feel so lonely and find myself enjoying being something non-existent. The sudden change of my mood, it surprises me more than anyone else sometimes. I feel so unimportant as we walked to the bus stop, my silence means nothing to anyone, my head down with my eyes fixed on the ground doesn't mean a thing to anyone, no one realise my sudden silence or my withdrawal from them. I am that unimportant. I don't exist and won't affect anyone if I ever go missing... That's what I felt as I walked to the bus stop with 3 friends who don't seem to give a damn about me.

Then Steffen called me, made me smile a little as someone actually do remember me, asked me out on Thursday to catch up.... He missed his flight at Manila so he didn't get back till today.. Poor guy! Haha... After like what? Three attempts to catch up, this is finally like almost happening.. But no words of confirmation.. It might not happen like all the previous attempts.. Haha.. Then i texted him saying it's so nice to catch up again, hearing from him after so so long.. And he replied right away, saying i still have the cute voice.. Haha.. Now I know i have a very ugly but adorable voice.. haha..

Oh well, my sudden switch of mood, being edgy, I dunno what are causing them. I guess, like Mr said, it's just the phase of life where you just get so confused and being confused just don't help if you got nowhere to head and look forward to.. I should really be more focused and write out what I want to accomplish, day to day.... and hopefully keep to it.

Good night, folks.

Which is better?

How do I look?


Do I look better?

With or without the spectacles?

Me


Me again

Labour Day

It's Labour Day... Since I had a great night yesterday, there's hardly any reason to be unhappy. I was on one of my good mood, good day, happy hours days today.. Slept in till 0930hrs. Woke up and made everyone have a laugh as my hair were all standing, and yes I looked funny with my sleepy face with a funny hairstyle.

I practically drag myself around after I showered. Left my place at around noon to meet Mr and get my stuff back home. We caught "Coach Carter" today at 1800hrs at Cineleisure. Wanted to catch the 1600ish slots but was all sold out. So we went to eat first. Whatever the restaurant is called, it's one of those with an okayish service with an okayish to good food kind. We spent about $50 there. We had Italian-'something' it is nice bread toast with mozarella cheese, tomato and salmon as appetizer, then I had Beef Bolagnse(i think i spelt it wrong), Mr wanted to get the American Cheese Burger but it was out, tried ordering the Japanese Mayo Burger then found out it's the buns that they ran out of so he ended up ordering some hotdog meal.. and for dessert, yummy Waffle with Belgium chocolate, hot fudge and chocolate ice-cream with one small piece of mashmallow.. Yummy!!

Then we went to the movie... It's really great.. I love non-fiction based stories, be it movies or books. And this is no exception. It's inspirational, moving and everything.. Touched a lot on emotions, choices, sports+++(includes sportsmanship, sports introduction, and sports rule - in this case, it's basketball), education, decisions, and well... everything you would want to see in life... I wish I could move people to change and inspire them to be better... Maybe I could if I have the confidence and if I'm not that confused myself.

When Coach Carter asked Cruz what he feared most, I asked myself that as well.. I really really don't know what it is that I am afraid of.. When I see how these people survive from day to day, of how far they have gone and then was left alone, confused to make the decision/choices on their own without any guidance. I think I was one of them, I wasn't sure of what I want next after my Os really.. Just that I was really curious about buildings, so I chose to do my diploma on Civil & Environmental Engineering. And now that I've completed my diploma course, I dunno what to do next. I know I want my degree and to work and earn a better life. But how and where to get it, that's the question.

I watched a Hindi VCD with Mas today. It's Kuch Naa Ka Ho this time. It touches on love, as usual.. Well, this one's about one's ability to accept another the way she/he is and not care about his/her past kindda thing. In some ways, it is non-fiction, but in many ways, it is fiction... Oh well, if I go into details, I might end up going on and on about love and its special powers.. Haha..

It probably is because I'm in love. I just can't wait to end my curfew deadline and would be looking forward to many things that I could barely list. One of which is to see for myself how New Zealand really is... And when I'm there, I would love to meet those wonderful people I've heard of.. If you allow me, it's be Mr's parents, and many others..

I would also be looking forward to travel around, to accomplish this.. I need a job, and so does he.. In fact, he would need a job more than me! After travelling, I would probably settle down, lay everything down... No... No.. Am not talking about getting married.. Well, if it happens, it happens.. For now, settling down means living alone.

I hope to be able to live alone, hmm... maybe share an apartment or house with a girlfriend.. in maximum 2 years time. I hope to have my driving lesson by then too.. and maybe have my own car, with a great company to work for.. All this in maximum 4years time.

How does that sound? Realistic, I hope. And I really hope to accomplish all that... That's my goal for the next 5 years. And I'll be working on it, and I will be working REAL hard on it!

For now, I need a good nights' sleep in Mr's arms.. Oh, he's not here.. Oh well, virtual arms, from the look of it.. Haha.. Good night, folks!