Emotionally Missing Baby Blast~

Salam everyone..

This is just dedicated to my old ride.. Missing her badly suddenly.. Enjoy the pictures with lost memories~~

My Xth time on Pasir Gudang track

 I miss cornering like this at high speed with great stability~

 I truly miss those times where cornering was a challenge and fun.

I miss the posture, really~

My last goodbye on 31st July 2010..

I finally bumped into her again on 5th October 2011 when I went out for lunch.. Didnt see the owner.. but I gotta touch and harrass her for awhile.. I never knew it could be so emotional with an Italian babe like her... It was almost impossible to part with her, knowing I might just not get another chance to bump into her again.. The only hope and wish I had was for this Italian babe be well taken care of by her current owner, may he/she not bully her like how I did, although I did see the scar he/she had left on this gorgeous babe.

My Lalat (current ride) has been well.. She was constantly envious of Baby Blast, needless to say. Unlike Baby Blast, Lalat never bullied me on the road, where it's unsafe. However, she often gets bullied by others when she's stationary idling at an allocated parking lot. She hasn't been bullied for sometime now, thank God! I love her although I am nt as passionate. I appreciate her, that I definitely do. I hope Lalat will serve me well for the next few years. =)

It's already Mid-November!

Assalammu'alaikum family & friends,

 

Hope everything is great as it should always be~ How time flies.. It's already mid November! So much has happened, especially birthdays!! We had birthdays back to back this year! And it was awesome, definitely very meaningful to me!

I am looking forward to next year really, this time next year, it would be completely different.. I would be too busy, I hope I would be, because the busy would be a different kindda busy. I can't wait for my family to get together, those who truly mattered to me. The fun we would be having before and after the big event... I am excited, and I have 13more months to go!! I can't wait to shop, I can't wait to gather all my sincere volunteers and helpers.. Enough castles in the air for now..

Back to the real time, I am excited about the yarn shopping with a valued customer.. I can't wait to make that set, can't wait to see it on someone's bed displayed with much love, I can't wait to get it all done with love at the best quality!

On old issues, I really wanted to laugh at that one. It seems to me that everyone loves giving advices that they themselves refuse to heed.. Don't be mad.. it's just a matter of take it or leave it. Get your arse off that chair and start walking what your fingers has been typing... Walk the Talk, people.. Walk the Talk... It is my right to type my opinion, say what I think, express my feelings BUT I am in no position to make others swallow my thoughts and words.. If they do, well they must have agreed.. I ain't got a gun on anyone's head to force anyone into agreeing with me. People has their own eyes to see, their own voices to speak, and above all, their own brains to think! Seriously, if I have that sort of powers, I would have ruled the country! Haha..

Enough said now.. I definitely don't wanna be charged for further invisible influence again!

With much love,

Jun

 

Haha!

Assalamulaikum family & friends,

 

I was enjoying the comments, but it has stopped as of 18th September 2011.. Damn! I hope it stop to realize. Oh wells, life has never been better! Everything has been going great for me. Everyone's happy. Maybe this is karma? The happiness, the blessings.. perhaps perhaps..

 

Oh don't worry, I know everything is just another loan from Him. Nothing's ours to keep anyway. Someone told me to delete off my blog completely, but hey.. why? Its weird right, to close or stop something you truly enjoy just because a few anonymous commentors stop by to critisize. Oh wells..

 

It will forever  be a question in my head, if they truly don't care what happens to me, or my family.. Then why do they take so much time spying on my facebook and blog.. hmmm... Anyways, that aside.. I'm just so happy these days.. Nothing could put away the smile on my face...

 

With that I shall end my entry for today, till I blog again~

 

Wassalam,

 

Anonymous Angry Commentor yet again~

Salam everyone~ I hope your day's been as colourful as mine.. :))

Its the second time an anonymous angry commentor tried to leave a comment at my blog. Strange as it is, whoever you are, I dunno where or how you read for you to feel angry... In fact, I couldnt find any phrase in my entry which in any way sounded like i blame anyone, or that mentioned anything about me being an angel or pretending to be one. I mentioned I was only human. Anyways, next time, pls leave your name- the real name- and pls quote to evidently show what i could possibly wrote wrongly.

I dont know what your motives are, and I really dun know that I was such a figure for you to be following my blog. Well, thank you Anonymous for visiting my blog and taking time to read my lenghty entries. i hope you enjoyed reading them. Well, i hope you are not affected in any way as what you claimed.. Looks like you had plenty of time to be digging into my entries and brood into a decade-old past. Sadly, you failed to note the stories that were much older and the newer ones.. But oh well, and oh, Anonymous, if your motive is to start another fire or to trigger me or any of my sisters, you should seriously consider trying harder.

Allah SWT is indeed the most Almighty, the most fairest, and the most knowledgable. Alhamdulillah, He never fails to test me and continually gave me strength to move on, be better and react better. Alhamdulillah, I am able to remain calm, and not feel inflicted or the least affected by your endless blows of insults or drama queen acts. In fact, I enjoyed them. They have helped me more than they ever did otherwise.

Please note that i have been blogging my life, and I enjoy doing so. And I write about anything and everything. I have never mentioned names, i often describe characters and behaviours, but I usually avoid calling names that will inflict dirt on many others around that person. I always believe that the guilty ones would be the ones reacting quickly without much investigation, worst being those who keep brooding about an old past.

My sister & I had been quiet.. Minding our own stuff.. We believe God knows whats best, and that only He knows the truth. We dun want to, nor intend to scoop down to your level. We seriously have a whole lot of many more important matters to attend to.

By the way, I dont go around living my life like everyone owes me a living, neither would i go around living my life like I owe anyone a living. I dont change for anyone else but for my own good and for Allah. I welcome your false accusation and insults anytime, it entertains me and it gave me so much benefits too. Alhamdulillah.

Seriously, what made you think I was writing about you anyway?

That aside now, i am so happy and excited today~~ packing away for an exciting weekend with my parents. Alhamdulillah, I was given this chance to spent some quality time with them. Syukuran~~

And, I cant wait for November to come greet me~~ 2 more months to go~~~~ :D

I gotta run now~ will blog again soonest, insyaAllah.

May we all be protected and always blessed durinh our journey to our destination, insyaAllah. Amin~~

Wassalam Mu'alaik,
Jun Yusof

Put yourself in those smelly shoes

Salam everyone.. I hope everything went as smooth as silk for you.

There's always one thing that I dislike the most, it is when people tells me to change and do something that i never enjoyed, or find it beneficial to me in any way except perhaps, it'd make it easier for me to gain attention of some sort, which i usually avoid. Afterall, i always believe that what one said is easy may be too difficult for another, and what's good for one doesn't necessarily means it's good for all.

I always choose my natural naked face over a made-over or made-up face, unless it is really necessary of course... Sometimes, I cant help but observe others trying to outdo each other without realizing the much harm done to none other that their ownselves... How easily others quickly blame another for something they see in the mirror.. Noone's life is as beautiful as it seems, no matter how green the grass is on the other side, there will always be some minus points that might be overwhelming for you..

So my beloved friends, don't try too hard and stop pushing yourself too hard. Just be yourself, because whilst some may look hot in singlets and shorts, another person may just look haggard in their smart office wear. It is really okay to just stick to your own rules and be yourself- the naked face or the thick make up.. Make your own choice, whatever it is that suits you will be great as it is.

With much love,
Jun Yusof

Its Syawal!!

Salam everyone!!! Eid-Mubarak to you & family~ I would like to first of all wish everyone a joyous holidays, may this festive season brings about closeness, and opportunity to forgive whatever that's possible, insyaAllah~ May Allah SWT grant us long life to meet and see through another Ramadhan, InsyaAllah.

I had a very interesting ride all through Ramadhan this year~ Alhamdulillah, I was given strength to pull through and handle it to my best ability, and was also granted a softer heart to forgive that someone. InsyaAllah, the past wont repeat itself. However, I am only human to still hold grudges on some event. Two men and one lady i will never forgive, one of them especially so! And i have many reasons to. One he had called names, inflicting not only the person he is refering to, but also the person's parents & grandparents. They are lucky that I have outgrown this phase and decided to just play nice and pretend nothing happened, but oh they always remind me by giving gestures that can really refresh that memory I am trying to archive.

Moving on... I find it funny how some can seriously lick up all the saliva and mucus that they have vomitted out to us just so they can get something nice from us at no charge... Still, i ignore such gestures out of respect and love for my mom. So these people have my mom to thank all their life for raising me up as such a fine lady that can forgo such behaviour ad tolerate all the actings~

Did I tell you? My eldest sis has made a come-back to our home & arms, Alhamdulillah~ Things may not be 100% back to what it used to be but it shows that real blood will remain that thicj, so pls stop trying to break these ties, and pls stop spreading rumours of us trying to break yours because I have so many other things to attend to!

The breaking news now, on 1st Syawal. We were the first family to arrive at Granny's place along with my second sis and kids, followed by my eldest sis and kids... Then the second family arrive. Me and sis were in the kitchen eating when they arrive, i caught the glimpse of someone who wanted to end someone's life.. But guess what? He made an exit right away! I might have been mistaken, but my second sis said she too caught a glimpse of that guy.. Oh well, then the third family arrive and the forth.. That lady... So, haiz no comment la~

All that aside now.. For theae incidenta clearly shows that i am not guilty, and that i am not avoiding anyone nor afraid to show myself before anyone. On the brighter side, I had a great conversation with my cousin. And it was refreshing, and he deserves all the respect he is gaining. I hope he keeps it up, as this character and attitude will definitely bring him to sucess one day, InsyaAllah.

I guess thats all that has been residing in me for mow~ will update again soon~ Gonna catch some rest for mow~~

Salam Mu'alaik,
Jun Yusof

Housewife vs Career Woman

Salam everyone, I hope all is well with you like it is for me. May the weekend be filled with much bliss and happiness, insyaAllah.

 

I just feel like writing about what I think about being a housewife as compared to a career woman...

 

Everyone said being a housewife aint easy, and that if I'm given the choice, I should opt to work and live a career life. Guess what? I never said being a housewife is easy, I know being a housewife would mean having to work all the time 24/7 round the clock with a routine to keep the house tip top. And know something, that's what I want in my life. To always be at home, running after kids, and waiting for the man of the house to rescue me with a kiss and prepare his meal. And no, not everyone thinks alike. I'm as different as can be. I always believe that what's good for you, may not be good for me, and what's bad for you, may very well be my medicine.

 

Well, I can see a whole lot of benefits staying home as compared to be working in a corporate line. I grew up with my mom always being at home, and somehow I felt secure knowing she will always be there when i head home, and often, I had a panic attack when mom isn't home for some reason. And it goes a long long way, I appreciate my mom more, and we had this bond that some of my friend didnt with thier working mom. When I feel down, all I need a phonecall to my mom. Sometimes, it wasnt even me picking the phone, sometimes she'd call me like as if she knows I need her.

 

It wasn't the toys she buy me that mattered. It's the time she spent with me. It's the reassuring voice that keeps telling me to run small errands... It's the constant nagging that reminds me how I should get things done. All of these are the little things that mattered to me now.

Although I had seen how she sacrificed and work all day just to get us ready, cooking a meal that everyone likes, cleaning the house to make sure my sister wont get an ashtma and to make sure I dun get my rashes, sanitizing the room when someone falls sick, so others won't be affected. Make sure we sleep and wakes up on time. I know how tiring it can be. Being a housewife is not at all easy. Not even the tiniest bit. You know what she tells me, and I asked her what her biggest reward was being a housewife? She said, "my children, their smiles, their hugs, their kisses and watching them grow without missing anything out" And that is what I wanted to see. I wanna see everything my children do, what they learn, how they change.. I wanna be there. I dun wanna be at work, and only hearing my maid or mom to call me and update me. I don't wanna have anyone else taking care of my children, I want live updates, not a voice update or video update.

I know some career mothers, who often end up being torn. My sisters are working moms, who send their kids to parents or babysitters. They still go home after picking up the children and still have to complete the household chores. Quality time spent with children are really limited. And one of my sister with her short temper, often end up scolding her children when the chores gets overloaded and too much to handle, especially when children didnt put their dirty clothes in the correct baskets, or forgot to put their dirty shoes at the right places to be washed, etc etc.

So, pls stop telling me how I dunno about the challenges a housewife face, because whatever the challenge is, I'm ready to face it because I think that's good for me and my family. anyways, there's always home business to supplement income if needed be. ;)

 

Btw, I'm a degree holder, and yes, I could have just worked myself in the corporate line earning big bucks, but no, I dun think it's really necessary.. I'll let my man do that, unless he rings the help button. And no, pls dun use this to psyco your gf/fiance/wife to be a housewife because not all women are made to stay home. =)

Have a great weekend ahead!

 

Love,
Jun Yusof

Respect my Love

Salam my friends,   I hope all is well with all of you and may you have a great day ahead.   I have yet another emotional turmoil, and ended up feeling so hopeless and down....   Women being women, we don't usually get to express our feelings, desires and wants as openly as men. We don't get away with saying No sometimes... Obviously, I want to.. BUT i know it's wrong so I said NO until time is ripe and right. Anything big starts off small, which is probably why I refused even the smallest temptation of lustful desires..   And it is really weird to keep tsking someone when he/she is next to you and then yearns so much for the biggest hug from the person the moment we parted to head home. And it makes my heart pump so hard that I just can't wait to start living the rest of my life with him. Blame all these impulse on my PMS, blame it all on the fact that I am a woman. And I just can't seem to hold it any longer.   Above all else, women yearns for respect, understanding, unconditional love, and a listening ear to her unstoppable complains... YES she knows nothing will change the fact that she is stuck with that thing she hates, but she just wants someone to agree and see how negative life is at that moment of time when everything ugly strikes. Just let her calm down and get back to her senses before you even begin to talk her out of that negative stream.   Sometimes, women just wants to be heard, to have someone interested in what she's about to tell... But sometimes, maybe always, the other person tried to step in and finish her "exciting" story and just blackened her bright exciting day... I just sometimes, wish for an innocent hug, and words that assure me all will be well, and someone will always be with me, at good and worst times... sometimes, she dun need words... she just needs company, someone who would look into her eyes, and sends reminders her how special she is...   And oh how lucky I am to have that constant reminders. It never fails to make my worst morning the best in an instant.. A smile across that residing frown and angry lips.. How can I ever complain...   Life is great, and i hope yours is to.. The decision is in your hands, you decide how your day will become.. and how you can make the days of people around you a better day... Wassalam, Jun Yusof

The Emotions Ice Blend

Assalammu'alaikum friends...   How are you? I hope you are doing well.. I have been having these emotions ice blend feeling for a few days now.. I dunno how else to describe how I feel.. It's really like having all the emotions you ever felt blended so well with ice.. yeah... the ice cold ICE.... it just kindda froze for awhile...   I easily get annoyed, angry, bitter, but just as fast as these feelings hit me, I forget why. And when I forget why, I just simply dismiss such feelings. My darling fiance has been such a darling throughout my emotional turmoil. He tried cheering me up, and sometimes ended up being tsked by me, and he simply make my day few hours later with an unexpected text. He hugged me when I least expected, and sometimes, I just refused to let go, because I felt so secure in his arms... I never wanted to part from those arms, but I know we both had to..   Know what? It's just the monthly struggle being a woman more than anything else, but sometimes, it gets a little off track with the sudden flashbacks of sour past, the sudden recall of the bitter history.. it kindda makes the monthly struggle a little too much... Doesnt help with the endless to-do-list, the long queue of requests, and whatever else that make me go "oh~ please... not now/again"...   My preparations is going okay.. Waiting for my portfolio to be ready next month for viewing and discussions. I am now going throught the different scenarios.. And sometimes, I wish I can go ahead and tell whatever is in my mind.. but sometimes, it frust me when everyone is against my plans.. With that I always remind myself that it's okay.. the elders will do the talking to clear these blur and messy little things.. The little things, i reminded myself.. The most important, and the biggest thing to have emphasis and importance would be the solemnization.. So I hope all will go well for me and all the future brides, insyaAllah..   I have found a nice name for my crochets and went about naming them.. it kindda gives a great feeling that I created those with much love.. heh..   I gotta go now.. lots of work waiting for me. Have a great Tuesday ahead all~   Wassalam, Jun

The great weekend starts on Thursday~~

Assalammualaikum my friends & readers... May all be well with you..   It is strange when I find a mysterious inbox and couldnt get the link to my post, but anyways, whoever you are... I hope all is well with you...   My weekend started last Thursday, we went shopping~~~ six of us definitely had fun and a good laugh... Friday was tight, but enjoyable nonetheless~ We drop off the kids, went to Fiance's place, catched up with everyone... had a good chat and laugh as well... Later that night, he dropped me off and went on fishing with his brother and little D.     I woke up early on Saturday to head down to the market to shop for all the ingredients for the BBQ~ Mom and I cooked several dishes simultaneously to keep up with the time frame. It rained but that didn't put out our fire of hope and excitement.   We drove a journey of an interval of hot sun and heavy rain throughout. Alhamdulillah, the rain stopped the moment we reached our destination. We started the fire, and get it burning~ It was such a fun day and we enjoyed it so much... 8 adults and 2 kids.. we had that park rocking with our food and great family bonding..   The kids end up at my place that night.. And we continued to have fun on Sunday.. Watching DVDs.. having a good laugh - yet again - till it's time for them to go home in the evening.   Fiance and I went to visit our friend who just gave birth last Friday and I get to bully their daughter, getting the baby smell on me... Ahhh... I miss newborns~~ Can't wait for my own.. Like totally~~   I hope you had just as much or more fun that me last weekend.. and may more fun awaits us all this coming weekend~~   Assalam Mua'laik~

The Good with the Bad....

Assalammu'alaikum friends,

How are you guys doing? It's been almost a month since my last entry.. I had attended 2 weddings so far.. One of my university friend, and another of my cousin. It was nice catching up with Fadz.. Recalling our uni days.. those night classes, how we didnt pay attention, how we pulled through... how we celebrated.. It was still fresh in my mind.. And we did have fun...

At my cousin's wedding the following week, I saw how charming and handsome my uncle was that day. The glow on his face. He must have been happy.. And having grandma to hug me and cry, that is overwhelming. We kept mum, noone else know... afterall we have got nothing to hide.. People will always talk regardless, so we decide to make the change and just well, not speak. We all know we are not guilty, and we know we have got each other. Why should we scoop to their level and speak of their mistake or dirty laundry for that matter, anyway.. The truth will be out sooner or later. For once, I rather it not be from our mouths... And just let things be the way they are..

A lot of other things follow... I became some sort of a place of solace for people to throw in their secrets.. Maybe because I never had the desire to know more than what I should know... But sometimes, I have to admit that many times, i had too much in my hands that I sometimes end up worrying about other people more than i had to worry about myself. With that said, I'm so glad I had my fiance with me, with whom I can share everything with, to whom I can always trust and rely on.

It is true that you always need a bestfriend in your partner, only with friendship can you tell everything and accept the reactions more constructively. I mean if it has been love and just love, I would have taken every little reactions to heart and would take every joke seriously... I would have expected lovely praises and sweet-nothings everytime we meet if it's just love between us.. We had friendship before love, and that allowed us to discuss, talk, and understand different perspective being potrayed, and most times debate and argue our differences before we agree that everyone is different and unique, and that leaves us a hug, wide smile and a big laugh. Kiss on the forehead, and reminded each other of our love. To smile till we meet again.

Tell me then, how can I not be happy with this man, who always remind me about life - the endless learning process, the ups and downs, the part and parcel of being human.. who constantly teach me to smile, and laugh... who always remind me to take the good with the bad... he always remind me to follow what's good, and learn from the bad (mistakes). Tell me then, how can I ever not be happy with a man like him.. Who reminds me that we are all not perfect but we can always be better... This man filled the gaps of my flaws, then how can I not readily fill the gaps of his flaws?

21 more months.. May Allah S.W.T always protect us and guide us to be a better person...

Do'a for today, "Ya Allah, lindungi la hubungan kami, dan bimbingi lah kami ke jalan yang disenangiMu. Ya Allah, permudahkan lah perjalanan kami untuk mencapai niat kami yang suci. Murahkan lah rezeki kami dan kukuhkan lah jodoh kami. Jauhkanlah kami sekeluarga daripada pembaziran. Ya Allah, bantukan kami, hamba-hamba mu untuk selalu sadar akan kerendahan kami.. Ingatkan kami bila terlupa, hukumlah kami bila tersalah.. Sesungguhnya hanya Kau yang Maha Mengetahui, Maha Memahami, dan Maha Kuasa. Amin"

My Loveliest Surprise

Assalamualaikum friends and family!! May your days since my last post be great and filled with love....

I would like to first and foremost, wish all my Chinese friends and readers a Happy and Prosperous Lunar New Year. May the year of Rabbit be better year with lots of happiness, great health and more wealth. ;)

As usual, a lot has happened and all is in my stride... With much pride and love, I would like to happily announce that I just got engaged on 4th Feb exactly a yr and a month after we make the first decision... Alhamdulillah... Finally... The diamond ring is fitted on my finger by his Mak Long M..
All my friends didnt noe about it except my dearest bestfriend. Afterall, it was supposed to be simple family affair, which turned out to be slightly off the scale with much excitement and warmth from my now fiance's family. The smiles, words of encouragement, and warmth always makes me smile along with much happiness. Alhamdulillah, his family accepted me with so much love!

I therefore would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who came to help despite the little fused wire in the midst of preparation. I appreciate that little time was spared to make my little happy occassion a joyous one. I really appreciate and wont be able to say enough thanks... Syukran,and InsyaAllah, Allah S.W.T will repay you many folds in return of your good heart.

To my bestfriend, B... I love u babe! Thanks for making me your very first and only model and u were an excellent artist! You made me so gorgeous, receiving so many compliments within just a few hours. I am so glad that you came and stayed on helping out on my very special day. Cant wait for ur turn, dear!!

The smiles on my face never left... I was entertained, happy, loved, and excited. The future is promising. Life was never without a challenge, always with obstacles, and every hump i passed through brings me more maturity and made me a little wiser that before. Alhamdulillah.... Unlike many who only blame others, who only lived life virtually, i came about into the real life, all ready to face whatever bites. I was personally chosen to go through all these at all crucial timings, because i was strong and all this will only make me even stronger....

With this I end this happy entry... Good day, and have a wonderful week ahead...

Till I blog again,
Wassalam.