I just returned from my Sepang trip with 5 other guys..
I realised just how stupid I've became.. I regretted not waiting, I regretted not being patient, I regretted being selfish... I regretted giving others hope only so I could have one..
This time, I guess I deserved to be heavily punished. Mr Nice dun deserve me... I knew I still had feelings for him whom I hated but wanted to be with so much... I mean, too much.. I knew I still wanted him as badly as I hated him sometimes.. I realized just how much he has changed thus far... And I just regretted everything that I had done out of fear, insecurity, and uncertainty.. I regretted the fact that I had a short attention span, I wasn't paying attention because I was afraid of hearing things I didn't wanna hear..
After this Sepang Trip, I just knew things won't be the same anymore.. I just knew everything will just go hoo haa.. But I also know that I wanna have more trips up north... And I do wanna hit the tracks..
I wish I could just rewind the time.. I am so full of regrets right now... I dunno how I am going to move on.... I hate to try too hard... I just hate to feel like I'm the only one trying.. I just couldn't wait... Why am I so impatient?
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