Apologies.. and Thanks for waiting..

Sorry for the long unbearable silence. My internet connection was cut short due to some unknown forces. Thus I wrote some of my history days over at somewhere else. There are a few little things that are rather very nice that happened over the silent days…

Friday, 24th March 2006

A great day that ended with 4 filled up stomachs and 4 wide smiles that continue to live everyday. I celebrated my brother’s belated birthday by ordering 2 regular pizzas and 1 bottle of coke as we sit under the void deck talking, catching up and joking. We sure had fun. But, honestly, 2 regular pizzas are seriously not enough… We need more… We want more.

Saturday, 25th March 2006.

I woke up around 7am, headed for the shower and get ready to leave my house. I accompanied my mom for an appointment at JPC. As we got into the lift down, two Malay men asked if we are going down to 7^th floor or the 1^st, we answered as asked. One of them then delivered one sad news, my neighbour who lives on the 9^th floor just passed away. My mom was filled with sadness and guilt for not finding time to visit him in the hospital while he was still alive. On the journey to JPC, we spoke of my late neighbour’s good deeds, his humorous joke, his spontaneity, and the little memories of him.

We reached JPC at around 8am. When we got to JPC, I queued for my mom and allow my mom to sit and rest. The queue was like an anaconda sliding through. We got out of JPC at around 10plus. Then we headed home and she started calling some friends to deliver the sad news. Then she waited impatiently for my dad’s call to tell him her eagerness to deliver her condolence to her friend (my late neighbour’s wife). My dad finally returned at 2pm. He had his meal, rest a little to get rid of the day’s tiredness. They then headed to my neighbours’ house at about 4pm.

I slept awhile before getting another shower to get ready to leave. I was at CH at 7pm. Met Jerie, the dear friend whom I haven’t seen since I can’t remember when. It was a day to celebrate hers and Sham’s birthday. We then headed towards Esplanade. I joined in with the instructors group. I guess I am more comfy and blended better with them than with the rest. We played games, sing songs, did a ice-breaking session. Laughed a lot.

And yes, we ordered four extra large pizza and two bottles of Coke. So we ate as we did the ice-breaking session. Was almost full, but not really… *Grinz* I had to leave right after the ice-breaking to head home as my mom was alone at home, and was a little afraid of being alone at night. I made a quick exit and was home by 10pm.

I ate my chicken before going to bed to end this very long day..

Sunday, 26th March 2006.

Parents went JB. Met MA at PS, was in no mood to do much. Was easily vulnerable and cranky.. Hungry.. Ate.. And got home....

*I only remember those because I typed it out in words... I don't have that big a memory in my brains.. Not at the moment.. Too much to store..

Pardon me.. I honestly can't recall much...

Friday, 31st March 2006.

Got my first pay check.. :p

Saturday, 1st April 2006.

Ran many many errands with mom. Deposited my cheque, deposited cash for dad, more errands, did our progress package thingy by post, I am tired.. And we ended the day.

Sunday, 2nd April 2006.

Went to my STSS acquantaince's wedding at Teban. Met a few old mates, didn't had much time to catch enough things after many lost years, but enough just by seeing them reunited again.

Of course, the best person to meet is my Malay teacher. She's the best, she will basically have the latest news of everyone that we may want to know.

Met MA at JE, then met his two friends, S & L. Played pool, wasn't MA's day to win. Oh well, too bad, but ain't he suppose to be happy that I won.. Hehehe.. A very fine day.

Monday, 3rd April 2006.

Back to work, paid my bills, renewed my internet plan.. And finally after so long, I gave mom $y. Feel so proud.. *grinz*

Speak to MA after DIA. Spoke and as usual, fell asleep while talking on the phone..

Tuesday, 4th April 2006.

I felt unsecured, unsure, and afraid. Many factors relating to that feeling.

First,
I was being critised at work, which is far away from good. Maybe it was just not a good day for the person involved. I took it easy, still held my head up high. I know what I was doing, so there should be no reason enough to feel stupid. I am not stupid so why should I feel stupid?

Second,
Relationship. Need I explain more? I guess there's no need.

Third,
My brain's exploding!!! I'm sure I don't need to explain that..

But one thing too many.. I am glad I still have a girlfriend to talk to. I still have mom to gossip with. I still have dad to get tips from. I still have myself to begin with.

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