Falling In Love All Over Again

Sunday was a pretty nice day for me, or shall I add "perfect" to the string of words?

Well, I finally am pretty sure of where I stand in KI's life, and it feels good to know. We ended up talking and straightening things out is this short conversation:-

Me: What do you usually look for in a relationship?

KI: Dunno. You?

Me: Well, I guess trust, honesty and freedom.

KI: Just trust, honesty and freedom is not enough.

Me: So what more do you look for?

KI: Happiness. If you have all the trust and honesty, and not get happiness, what's the point?

Me: Hmm.. You've got the point there... So why has your past relationships fail?

KI: Third party, I guess.

Me: Is there always a third party?

KI: Dunno, I never really ask.

Me: What do you do when you find out about the third party?

KI: Nothing. Well, if I saw her in front of me with another man, then I'll just smile and walk away.

Me: Gasp! That's so my style. My goodness.

We ended it there. And continue watching the movie with me lying in his arms. He suddenly felt so warm and nice. And there, I fell in love once again. Before I knew it, Sunday became Monday and it's time for me to go to work.

My mind wasnt at work, I kept thinking of the conversation I had with him. And then I thought, maybe I should just tell him what's in my mind. And before I could grab my mobile to text him..

KI: Hope you enjoyed the day with me last night.

Me: Certainly do. You're great. And I hope you feel the same. Been thinking, another thing that's so important in a relationship is to feel loved and to be able to fall in love again and again with the same person. I did you twice, maybe thrice. And it feels good.

KI: I did, and wanted to say, thanks for loving me. And that I love you a lot.

Me: And I'd continue to love you for as long as you do.

KI: And so I hereby pledge to love you for as long as it can last.

Me: You made me smile so much.

KI: And why is that?

Me: Guess I never been so much in love for a very long time.

KI: Guess love is in the air for both of us then.

Me: Not guess anymore. It is. And I hope it stays that way.

KI: Me too..

Then I had to text my gf.

Me: Babe, you know what? I'm so in love and I'm scared.

GF: Join the club of fears, babe. Up to meet tonight?

Me: Sure, we've got lots to catch up.

GF: Ok, call me after 6.

Me: Alright see you later.

Excuse me? Asking me why I am feeling scared? Well, I'm scared to feel hurt, I guess.... I think I've got too sick of getting hurt. And I hate to know that falling in love is like bungy jumping or sky diving. When you're lucky, you get the adrelaine rush and feel extremely good, and proud to have done that. When luck is out of the way, you just fall to the ground with bruises. If you're unlucky, you get broken limbs, and if luck hates you, you die.

I can't deny that I felt so good to be with KI and finally be able to say, I'm someone's gf. Then again, I'm afraid if this feeling will fade one day. And it sucks to not be sure if I can handle that one more time.

Oh God, shine me some light, spare me some time, protect me from evil and give me a signal.

Me and gf had the talk that we havent had for a long time, and it feels good to release it all - Guilt-free.

I got home, ate, and got in my room when KI texted me. I called him, and i felt a change. And once again, it left me blushing in disbelief.

AM I REALLY IN LOVE OR WHAT? Geesh.. Love really does make wonders... It really does. I just hope the aftermath is just as sweet if not better. ;)

Gidday All..