Life with me myself and mom

I woke up at 12nn.. Grinz.. My grandma came by today... And of course, she screamed at me for sleeping throughout the morning.. Hehehe...

Seconds after lying on my bed half awake, MA called. Such coincidence.. It happened so many times.. Doing/thinking/planning of the same things at the same time unplanned..

Mom asked me to put DO RE MI on. Then, I showered and did my prayers, then I checked my mobile, MA missed called me. So I returned his call. He is on his way to meet his friend and then straight to work.

Moments after I hung up, I was reminded to buy my mom her BH, RotiBoy and some reading materials that she love..

I texted MA on my way out the door. He returned my messages. And the to and forth messages goes on until I got home. It's a waste that some people fail to see his kindness, his greatness and to just put him aside without giving him a chance.. Some people just don't seem to appreciate the little things we do, do they? It's pity. And it's just too bad for them, as these things they don't see, another person see and would grab the opportunity to return them the attention (that might lead to love) they desire.

I have a strong feeling that things would work out for me and MA.. But we'll see.. I guess we still have a lot more to know about each other.

I gave Mom my two pinkie gold rings.. It couldn't fit into any of my fingers.

I talked to Mom again.. About things going on in my life. About my choices.. About MA.. She asked me if MA smoked, so I told her MA has quit quite some time ago. And told her that he encouraged me to continue my struggle and fight to quit the habit without being too pushy. She asked me about how I feel, what we talked about, what we joked about, how we met, and all the list of questions any mom would ask. I won't be surprised if Dad asked Mom that, thus her asking me. Parents... they always do that.. Hahaha..

I told her I wouldn't think of marriage in the next 5 years. I told her I wanna established my carreer and be financially stable before committing myself to another person. I told her I would happily bring all my friends home just so she won't worry about who I mix with. It felt so good talking to her. And I felt calm.

MA should be done with his work by now.. Waiting for his call... I think I am starting to love him.... I am happy... I made Mom happy.. and I look forward to MA's smile.. Awwww... I'm so touched.. Geez..

Oooo my phone's ringing.. MA's calling.. Adios..

A one whole day event

Today started at about 7.15am when MA waked me up. So it's time to rise and shine, and get ready for a fresh new day to begin. Being someone who just made a quick exit from Dreamland, I stupidly took the wrong train to all the wrong places. And so I ended up being about an hour behind schedule..

Met MA in the train, then headed to Bishan. Somewhere new to begin with, some place with new faces, and surroundings.. Adds spices to our daily routined life. Like someone said to me, "If life ain't interesting enough, just help yourself to make it interesting."

Once at the stadium, we changed and start out with a little warm-up, stretching.. and basically tried to challenge each other.. We decided that 800m is ideal as MA hadn't went for a run for months... We went on... Strange, but that 800m went smooth, I ran at constant speed throughout without loss of breath.. I could have done another 800m... But running alone is tiring.. Hehehe.. Oh.. I sprint my last 100m with MA left behind.. hehehe..

Then we went to the swimming pool.. After much persuading from MA, I decide to learn how to swim.. It was a near success.. I know the basic now.. hehe.. Just need practice now.. Yahooo.. Something new that I learnt today.. Very fun, very interesting, very exciting and very intriguing... Then we left the swimming pool looking at least 2 shades darker... Awww...

Pixies next time.. Kindda lazy to upload them.. Hehehe..

Our legs wanted to surrender.. It was almost impossible to walk any further.. Our eyes were drooping... Our stomachs grumbling.. We satisfy our stomachs first.. Then we had to get a powernap.. We need to!!! We took SBS 52 to JE.. The journey would be more than enough to recharge...

Once recharged, we went on to IMM to get my V/DVD Player. We found a match, and we bought it.. Soon we are in the cab heading home.. MA sets everything up and then chill out at my place till about 8pm, after our evening prayers..

Then MA headed home to watch the Sutradrama on Suria. And my day is ending soon.... My eyes.. they can barely stay open for long now... I got to go... I need my BED!!!!!!!

At home all day long..

Today is my "being a good girl" day.

Accompanied my mom to the market early in the morning.. Then I helped mom cook, then do my prayers, eat.. eat... eat... do my prayers... eat... eat... watched TV, talked to my mom, eat... talked to my mom again, watched TV, do my prayers, get online.. eat.. do my last prayers for the day... stay online.. and eat.. Hehe..

Weigh myself today.. I am 44kg.. I gained 4kg.. Yeay!!! Just shows that I am utterly happy.. Hehehe..

Parents asked me to buy the V/DVD Player tomorrow.. Then gonna get MA to help me carry it home..

I ate a lot today.. Feel so full.. And I'm happy.. Tingie reminded me that I'm happy.. Hehehe..

I am looking forward to tomorrow.. A V/DVD player at home.. Time to indulge in P. Ramlee's films.. Hehehe..

A day with Auntie Anne...

Auntie Anne is such a nice woman.. She gave us 10% discount. We bought like 4 Predzels of different kinds and one large cup of Passion Fruit. Original Price was ( $3 + $2.40 x 3 + $3.40) $13.60. We paid only $12.30. The 4 different kinds of Predzels are Almond, Cinnamon Sugar, Pamesan Cheese and Sour Cream. The nice, the sweet, the salty and sour mixture makes me even hungrier.. Hahaha..

Sad it was but that was about all that I did with MA today. I slot it in before he go off to work. I went home right after. A little tipsy after having a tiff with TIME. It simply slip away without me noticing whenever I am out with MA.. Geez.. TIME, take your time, will ya?.. Don't rush me up.. Darn.. Why aren't you consistant? The 2 hours with MA felt no more than 2minutes... Are you sick or something? Can you please slow down? Okay, I tell you what... Why don't you bypass the next 24hours like 24seconds, then on Monday, you slow it down so that 2 hours last like 2 days.. How about that? Cool eh? Now, now.. TIME.. Shall we make that a deal? NO?! WHY?! You are so unfair..

I am thinking of food now.. I feel like eating..

Oh yeah.. I simply trimmed my hair yesterday.. Barely noticeable. Only I feel the difference as it's easier to manage now.. It is more balanced, and somehow.. It looked longer, and with more bangs.. My hair looked fantastic.. Maybe my hair is in love with something.. Hmmm.. Wonder who my hair has fallen for..

I went to IMM yesterday... Just loiter about.. Saw a cheap V/DVD Player.. But ain't got the money with me to grab it up for my Mom.. Maybe next week..

Okay lets see.. Here's the bill I have to pay next week :

Starhub : $321.62
Pacificnet: $159.36

That would add up to $480.98. WOW..

Then I have to top my ez link up with $50 each.. That would be $100. Also, I need to give my Mom the balance.. Darn... I ain't got any money way before I got the money.. Scheiße..

Ich weiß nicht, was ich tun soll. I don't know what to do next.. Oh help me help me.. Hilfe.. Or is it Helfen? Oh man.. My German is going down the drain.. Argh... I'm stressing myself out.. Geez...

My kindda song

WAIT AND BLEED – SLIPKNOT

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

GET OUTTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!
Why I didn't I see this?
I'm a victim - Manchurian Candidate
I - HAVE - SINNED - BY - JUST
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

GOODBYE!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU!

I feel this song at its opimum. For it spells what I felt just about an hour ago..

Put that song on repeat mode and every hate is gone now... I felt so much better...

Now I'm missing someone.. I look forward to tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring out what I've kept so far..

Another song to end my entry:

Ass Like That - Eminem

The way you shake it, I can't believe it
I ain't never seen an ass like that
The way you move it, you make my pee pee go
Doing, doing, doing

I don't believe it, it's almost too good to be true
I ain't never seen an ass like that
The way you move it, you make my pee pee go
Doing, doing, doing

The way she moves she's like a belly dancer
She's shaking that ass to the new Nelly jams,
I Think someones at the door
But I don't think I'm gonna answer

Police saying freeze
Doing, doing, doing
What do you mean freeze?
Please, I'm a human being, I have needs
I'm not done, not till I'm finish peeing
I am not resisting arrest, I am agreeing Mr. Officer
I'm already on my knees
I can't get on the ground any further, it's impossible for me
And do not treat me like a murderer, I just like to pee, pee, pee
Yes, I make r&b, I sing song it go
Ring-a-chong, a-ching-chong-chong-chong-ching
Psych, I joke, I joke, I kidd, I kidd
If I offend I'm sorry, please, please forgive
For I am Triumph, the puppet dog, I am a mere puppet
I can get away with anything I sing, you will love it

[Chorus]

Jessica Simpson, looks oh so temptin'
Nick I ain't never seen an ass like that
Everytime I see that show on MTV my pee pee goes
Doing, doing, doing

Mary-Kate and Ashley used to be so wholesome
Now they're getting older, they're starting to grow bum bums
I go to the movies and sit down with my pop corn
Police saying freeze
Doing doing doing

What do you mean freeze?
Geez, I just got my seat
I have ticket, look I put away, my zipper’s zipped
Please do not remove me from this movie theater please
I did not even get to see Mary-Kate shower scene
I didn't mean to be obscene or make a great big scene
And don't treat me like I'm pee wee herman, this movies PG
Mr. Officer, I demand to see my attorney
I will simply plead innocent, cop a plea and be free
Free, yes, free, right back on the streets
What you mean my lawyer's with Michael, he's too busy?
I am Triumph, Britney Spears has shoulders like a man
And I can say that and you'll laugh cuz that is a puppet on my hand

[Chorus]

Hilary Duff is not quite old enough so
I ain't never seen a butt like that
Maybe next year I'll say ass and she'll make my pee pee go
Doing, doing, doing

The way she moves she dances like a go-go
In that video she sings get out you bozo
I need a new boyfriend, hi my name is JoJo
Police saying freeze
Doing, doing, doing
What do you mean freeze?
My computers would be seized and my keys to my ranch
I just baked cookies Mr. Officer, looky, take a whiff of these
Here, I make Jesus juice, take a sip of this
Nobody is safe from me, no not even me
I don't even know if I can say the word pee pee, pee
On the radio, but I think I did
Janet, is that a breast, I think I just saw a tit
Psych, I joke, I joke, I kidd, I kidd
I don't think my joke is working, I must flee quick
Get to the chopper, everybody get out
I am not Triumph, I am Arnold, get down

[Chorus]

So Gwen Stefani, will you pee pee on me please?
I ain't never seen an ass like that
Cuz the way you move it, you make my pee pee go
Doing, doing, doing

Fuck is wrong with you? (ha!)

What astrology say about me...

This is what they say about Women born on Fridays :

" Wanita yang lahir pada hari Jumaat tabiatnya berani menentang suami. Bangga diri, suka berbelanja, suka dipuji, suka bergaul dan suka melakukan perkara yang merbahayakan dan sia-sia.

Bersemangat waja, pandai simpan rahsia, tak suka mengaku kesalahan sendiri. Dalam soal kewangan, bersikap boros dan tak pandai simpan wang. Cintanya sejati dan tidak mudah berubah, cuma kadangkala tidak telus. Seksualnya sangat teristimewa, menyeronokkan, penuh kelembutan tetapi apabila dingin tak suka dipaksa. "

Translation :

Women born on Fridays are brave to go against their husbands. Very proud, loves to splurge, never thrifty, not good at saving money, and likes to do dangerous things, and things that do not benefit.

Has a strong inner self, good at keeping secrets, do not like to admit own mistakes. In terms of money wise, she likes to spend and is bad at saving money. Her sincere love and her love hardly changes direction, however her love sometimes land at the wrong people. Her sexuality is very special, express and gives optimum attention, full of sweetness but when she doesn't want any, She just Hates it.

----End of translation----

Even my mom agree to what they say.. Espeacially the money part.. You live life once, so spend all the money you earn while you still can.. Haha.. I know, I ought to learn and save a little bit for rainy days.. Oh well..

And guess what? I am addicted to the Olympics.. I dunno why, I just love watching it.

MA called me but I didn't hear my phone as it was in my room.. Ouh.. darn! I miss his voice.. Damn.. Can't wait to talk to him.. Can't wait to see him tomorrow..

Oh man! Two days off seems so terribly long for some people to handle.. Oh well, if it's for the better, why not eh? This is just another challenge in life that we take and risk.. The benefits will be reap by those who try and never gave up..

JMY sets mode to -Blog
JMY left saying "I miss him who love me..."

What a SLEEP day?

I went straight home from work today. Ate the moment I got home, watched the Olympics a little.. Fell asleep around five... And keep falling back to sleep till ten plus at night..

MA called me and I spoke in midst of my sleep.. Spoke to my mom and it feels right when she smiles again...

Geez.. I'm mixing up all my stories now.. Back track back track... Focus.. Compose myself before typing.. Breathe in breathe out...

Today is my last day at CHJW. On this very day, it is just like any other day at work. Nothing out of the ordinary.. Well except for one mysterious customer...

She was no doubt, an ordinary late 40s Chinese woman. She was a little too quiet for me really.. Not saying a word, she puts a loaf of bread on my counter, intending to purchase it. She digs into her pocket in response as I tell her the price of the item.

With her was a toddler in a pram. Definitely her clan, most likely is her grand daughter, who takes up her quiet personel. Unlike other toddlers who would probably winced, blinked, speak or whine, this girl who's about 3 was silent and sitting still and hardly blinks her eye, stared at me in daze. She was definitely not quite a normal kid I would expect. Soon after, her mother (by guess as the grand mother and the little girl was waiting for her outside) came in to buy some sweets.. She was no different from the said grand mother. Quiet, did not say a single word, and left without any expression on her face..

And so that was one quiet quiet family.

Then I did what I always did on a normal day, printing POs, doing Receivings, doing RTVs and printing barcodes. And soon, a lady came.. She was a regular customer. An indian in her late 20s, she too has a quiet personality. Barely speaks, barely smiled, she looked extremely unapproachable.. She do reacted and did speak today (maybe it's her OFF day), she actually would look nice if she were to smile a little more.

Soon, there were a few Chinese customers who often speaks Mandarin to me.. Do I really look that Chinese? I dunno.. Maybe... Oh well, maybe I should take up Mandarin courses. It would be a really good investment, don't you think?

Soon, it was noon. And my neighbouring shop passed me a few booklets of discount coupons. That coupons are so special, it sets my tummy grumbling. And so I decide to eat for the last time at my work place. And then came my suppliers, looking for items to be returned or mending to their respective items.

And soon it was time to count my money and set myself free.. WooHOo..

That was the end of my work life at CHJW.

Back at home, I see my mom. Well, I was ready to be nagged again, I mean my mom usually have some balance from yesterday.. But I guess my face was showing my tired body and my lazy ears probably start to flop so much that my mom decide to spare today. Ho ho.. I didn't get nagged today.. Yeay.. Hehe..

Then I watched the Olympics.. It was beautiful the way they dance on ice. I felt the pain and the embarrassment when dancers fall to their disgrace. And I felt the pride when they did great. I felt the adrelane rush when I see the runners run to the end.

And soon my tiredness couldn't take it and I fall into a deep sleep.. A sleep with many dreams.. Some of which couldn't be described.. It was so addictive, I kept falling back to sleep right where I left my dreams when I woke up to text MA. It was just great to have a five hour nap..

My mom went to bed early today.. And here I am blogging my day.. Didn't meet MA today, not meeting him tomorrow either.. This week is dedicated for my home and mom.. Celebrating it with my upmost graciest commitment and pride.

Blogging off..

I hate the erotic pollution....

I simply hate those long winded sounds that are coming out of my Mom's mouth.. I know it was my fault.. But she ought to understand me.. Darn...

I simply dunno how else to make her understand my plight.. I really don't... She really thinks I like to be bad.. To be talked about.. To be cursed.. To be troubled... To be nagged.. To be me...

WTF?! Who wants to be in trouble? Who in the world would ask to be cursed? Damn it!! F*ck the world.. Why wouldn't i freaking care about myself? Why? I am not stupid to be selfish and not think of my future!! I know what I want, and I am going towards my dreams.. But these shit is holding me back.. Those freaking curses you throw at me don't do me good.. SO shut the freak up.. I am an adult.. I know what I am doing, all I need is for you to freaking understand me.. To freaking trust me... Darn.. Nvm.. FORGET IT.. You know what? You won't change, and I won't either.. I am the one who's freaking trying my freaking best to not blow.. But there you are trying your freaking best to irritate the freaking shit out of my freaking ass.. Darn it!!

So what if I am at home all day? In what ways would anything benefit anyone? In what ways will you be happy that I am at home? I know, you would be happy just to tell me on and on about what a bad life you've been living... And simply complain the day away... Thinking and telling me that you deserve much better... Yeah.. I hear all these willingly without saying anything back.. Because I understand you.. Because I know you didn't go a very smooth sailing life.. I know.. And so I just be there to listen to you.... But did you once, sit and simply listen to what I have to say? Did you? For every word I were to say, You had something else to say back.. You always have a reason as to why you react that way, and how I should have reacted... It seems like you will have the last say no matter what.. So I simply let it be.. You are afterall why I am here right now..

Well... After all these.. I wanna say thanks.. And would like to tell you that I, JMY, would stay home for the whole of next week, to face you and only you... I won't leave your premises unless allowed..

So friends, I will be out of touch from 22nd February to 3rd March 2006.. Should you need to meet me, please make your respective appointments from 4th March onwards. Thank You.

I was out of all the moods....

I wasn't up until it was 9plus when my niece and nephew start jumping on my bed and on me.. Urgh.. Had to get up...

Then I brought them down to the playground... Back home, they were reluctant to shower. Once in the shower they were reluctant to get out.. KIDS.. Urgh..

I was sleeping three quarter of the day.. Steffen called me out of the blue from Germany.. Crazy fellow.. His voice was bad.. Then I got tired, my battery died... and I slept.. A good powerful nap.. Then I woke up with Nayli next to me.. Then I fell asleep again.. And I simply kept falling back to sleep..

MA worked his ass out from 9am till 8pm.. Then I realised that something was out of routine.. I wasn't eating.. I wasn't laughing much, I wasn't smiling most of the time.. I was bored.. Like something is missing.. DUH.. I didn't meet MA.. Man.. I miss him..

SO today was nothing but boredom.. I am having quite a terrible headache.. Urgh.. It hurts.. I wish MA is here so he can flash me his magis smile and make me new again..

Eat eat and dun stop eating

I am so happy, I ate without an end..

I had so much fun today.. I went to GWC... I wanted to disturb MA at work.. But darn.. I got lost.. Couldn't locate TCC.. Hahaha.. So sad.. MA got out in his uniform.. He look so good.. Like a cook he would be one day...

Then we went to Mac eat.. And then we took the shuttle service to CH and then walked to Library@Esplanade.. MA need a powernap.. He snores!! Hahaha.. He did.. But who cares? He needs his sleep so let him sleep... He's quite a good sleeper.. Hardly moves, wakes up smoothly, watch where he ends up at.. But he can be a bit grumpy in his sleep and when he couldn't recognize the place he wakes up to.. Haha.. But it's cute.. Hearing him sleep is like a lullaby welcoming me to snooze world.. But just as I was about to sleep, a librarian came to me and said MA's sleeping.. I went like, "Oh.. is he? Okay.. " And I nudge him to wake up.. And go on with the day... Nice and happy.. Contented and energized.. I was hungry by then...

Then we walked to Millenia Walk.. To eat at LJS.. The fish sux.. Then we went to Pizza Hut to disturb Umar.. He is so cute.. Hehe.. His smile is so natural.. So genuine.. I dreamt on about asking them for their contact numbers and asking them out one day.. And MA agreed readily on that.. Where else can I get someone as crazy as MA.. Who agrees to all my crazy dreams and ideas.. Hahaha.. I'm so happy I met him..

Then we walked to Suntec.. and play a game of XBOX.. Boxing Rocky.. Hooohooo... I like that game so much.. We played that for about an hour.. Drew three games and I won the last one.. ho ho.. I'm so good at that..

Then we headed home.. Man~ I am gonna miss MA.. Not meeting him tomorrow.. Awww..

Blogging off to dreamland.. ZZZZzzzzzz

I have a crush on Auntie Anne's

I have to recall 2 days' of entry.. Here goes...

16th February 2006:

I am having a serious crush on Auntie Anne's.. The yummy Almond Predzels and the caramel is just so salivating.. I ate two of those, and I lick the caramel to its last drop! Then we ate rice with seafood.. I forgot what it's called.. We shared a plate, I just knew we wouldn't finish two. Good thought comes good result. We finished one plate and couldn't stuff anymore. Hehe... Then we walked to East Coast Park... Went to the jetty took pixies and more pixies..

17th February 2006:

My home visit done.. Nothing much, just more on updating.. It was over by 4pm. Then I went to meet MA. We took thousands of the craziest pixies.. Hehe.. Plus we dance to the sound of jazz..

Nothing much happened.. Or shall I just say.. Let the pixies do the talking and keep the mind busy... c",)

I am falling deeper into knowing MA.... And I might just have to take the risk and continue to love him while doing that... I am smiling, laughing and going crazy...

Enjoy the pixies....

Devil is coming out... 

Close up of me, myself and Me.. 

Walking off.. 

No friend no more.. 

OPen SLOWly 

NJ: What do you think that is? MA: WHERE? I DUNNO.. 

AARrrrgghhhhhHHHHH 

Me and Mama.. 

Sniffle snuffle... 

People people.. of all things, they do seating and waiting the best! 

Devilish faces..  

MA: Mummy!!! It's over..... NJ: shuddup.. 

Innocent and decent..  

This is the fattish version of me 

Innocense kills 

This me in normal mode 

OINK!!  

Distorted faces of the universe 

Hello down there... A bit blurry but who cares? 

MA: WTF? What kind of face is that? NJ: Hmmm...  

Welcome to our nostrils!!! 

Hello up there.. Nice to meet you.. 

EEeee.. urgh... 

NJ: I am so hungry!! MA: You can't eat me.. NJ: I am still gonna bite your face! 

Arrgghhh MA's falling.. Arrggghhhh... The bus is going to overturn!!!!