My Shopping Addiction Satisfied..

Not Yet!! Hahaha.. I have been shopping through this month like there's tomorrow.. What I bought: a pair of Puma Frame with Transition Lens, 3 pairs of Levi's jeans (straight cut, ultra skinny, and straight fit), 2in1 sling&pouch.. And the list dun end there. I'm still on a look out for a Samsung Phone (either Innov8 or Pixon M8800), Puma/Converse/ Levi's Shoes, Tank Pad, Fairing Screw set, work shirts (probably from G2000), Zinc Sling Bag... Oh my.. I wish I could just buy a whole shop of everything I want..

I intend to sell a few of my old collections to make room for the new ones.. Probably would set a sellers account in Ebay and post pictures of my sales in my multiply.. I need to rid, earn some $$ and buy more stuff.. Urghz.. So much of not shopping for 3months.. And now look at me.. Geesh~

Gotta run now. Daa~

When the past bugs us...

When the past starts to bugs in, the present seemed to be put on hold, and the future seemed non-existent. It seems like the past will never stop haunting us... And sometimes, someone else's past gets into you... I kept giving others a chance, but will I get mine? Or will others just jugde me and take my nobility to their advantage?

I start to really wonder if anyone else bother to change or if they just point the blame on others just so they can securely bury their past and not learn from them... Hmmmm, I think I'm guilty of that too.. I'm trying to dig into my past and see what's wrong with me, but all I could find were the faults of others that made me such... Then again, it's true when someone said, it takes two to tango, and two hands to clap... But the influence from other human can be so strong sometimes that it starts rubbing on to you and made you someone you're not...

It happens.. And it takes a great friend to tell you and a great strong person in you to realise how true it is... I'm lucky to have my greatest friends around me to tell me some of the most painful truth... And it takes a lot of courage with pride at stake to accept my mistakes and swallow back what I've spit. It was rather a sensitive issue... And it sure will take me a long time to push things away and get what I had wanted all this while. But what do I want, really?

I haven't been in my best performance at work lately, I wasn't a tiny bit motivated to go to work.. I got so irritated and so frustrated at work far more easily and all I could think of while working is to go home and just sleep away...

I start to think of other options in terms of career... I needed something out of the box... Something that is not forever desk bound. I need a job scope that requires me to get out and do something exciting... But what's exciting has its risks... And heavier responsibilities... And lots of discipline... So, I dunno what would fit into my fantasy job...

Sometimes, I wish I could easily tell if a man is right for me from his forehead... Oh well...

To my charming prince, whoever you are... I'm tired of figuring you and am tired of waiting and to let time tell... It seems like there's no prince at all... So I shall just forget about the whole idea of waiting for my charming prince to come rescue me.... Maybe Shrek would... I dun mind his donkey too...

Unwanted Changes...

Changes in life...

I wish I could go back and rewind the time to 6months ago... Perhaps things would be much better... I have done so much sins, and have changed too much for my own liking..

I regret everything I did... I wish I could return to how things were 6months ago... I admit 90% of the time, was caused by me myself... I could have minimized it.. Now that things were done..

I guess I only have time on my side.. To work on things, to return to how I was... And hopefully have him back to how he was... I missed those good old times.. Where we could just talked with no secrets between us.. And to speak what comes to mind..

I wish I could just have the power to erase everything that has happened in the last 5months...

I just have to work on things harder now... I have to... I guess I'll spend my night in deep thoughts... I wanna meet my babe as well... I might find some answers through her...

I really think it was my ego, and my pride that took too much of myself off the track... I am beginning to hate myself now and missed the old me who was just far off from what I am now.. I close my eyes, and I keep seeing the old me waiting to be found... And I saw the me I am now blocking my soul from finding her whom my soul has lost...

I know not how to explain myself for I have yet to understand what is going on with me... Why have things become so complicated? Why have i became so succumb to all this things that has happened, why have i let myself fall apart? Why haven't I learnt from my past mistakes?

I saw my prince, but I failed him... Will I win his heart back in time? Or will it be too late?

6days and $710 later...

30th October.. my bike's engine stopped short as I was on the way home along AYE from Tuas, right after the Benoi Flyover at 1 am... Called my superhero, came by... Checked.. my bad for not having enough tools under my seat... Yeah.. time to shop...

As I couldnt start my engine, or find my neutral gear... He went about pushing start my bike.. 2 tries later... Neutral gear was found and I could start the bike, but further checks confirmed that it was piston jammed. I pushed my bike to Caltex.. well I pushed mid way, and he took over after parking his car at Caltex...

Soon other aprilia riders came by.. wawan, ragnaphobia, afiq & quikslvr.. one by one tested, and confirmed piston jammed.. Soon shamie came by and join us... And my hero was tired and was about to work in less than 5hours later.. I allowed him to head home and asked ragnaphobia to gimme a lift.

We head down to Jurong Hill and spend the rest of the morning before work there staring at the everchanging clouds in the sky.. Fahmy and Rusydi came and join us with their pillions.. 5hours later, we head down to Al-Azhar for breakfast... And then I asked Rusydi for a lift home. The pillions have taken a cab home.. Haha..

I head for a shower and change into a new set of clothes and head to work.. It was a headache squeezing into the crowd in the bus....

I had a tiff with the shop for not covering my bike under warranty as promised. Got it to my mechanic after being in the shop premises for 2 days...

5 days of public transport is so sick.. My birthday was okay-ish...

I just hope Baby Blast can stay strong after this... I am feeling so moody lately... I miss him whom I know 6months ago..