Arup's Metamorphosis Night

28th March 2008 - Arup's Metamorphosis Night.

That night, I transformed completely... From the normal gal next door with minimal make-up to this absolutely gorgeous lady.. Haha.. Who's to compliment me if not for myself, eh?

Haha... But I do receive remarks like, "OMG, Never seen you like this before?! So cantik la u... " and "Who the hell are you? Whuuttt? Jun??? OMG... So different..." etc...

All credits go to Kak Nana, whom Mellissa engage for Ada, herself and me... She's such a nice lady, and beautiful too... She's one more hot Mama to the list.. =)

KI was too blind to see the transformation.. Guys being guys.. when will they ever learn how to compliment the beautiful ladies?

Anyways, I hated the food and how the waitress served us.. Horrible.. The host; Mr Chua Enlai, made up for all the crappy food served though. He was funny, and cool guy afterall... Very talented! I loike~ And he's humble, not the nose high up kind of guy...

We were taking photos; me and the rest of the committee and he actually request if we can take one photo with him.. Which was so not expected... I mean how many artist would personally request right? It's usually us the normal people who would request.. He's so cool~~

I'm waiting for the photos to be ready so I can upload them to my multiply, now I pathetically have only 5 photos to share...

We had the great time, really... At least I won something (for the first time!)... Haha...

29th March 2008
Nothing much happen.. Went over to Mama Hilmy's house... Ordered McDees... Eat away..

30th March 2008
Family reunion again.. Hee.. Went to pick Ummie Yam then went to Bik Hal's house then went to Mama Hilmy's house, ate at Alif... So nice to eat out with the family after so so so long... I fed Shahril while he played with my NDSL....

I can't believe the extended hours he spent playing NDSL without moving a muscle... I mean he would just stretch his hands and crack his knuckles by just clenching his hands.. Amazing.. And he can do the same with his legs too....

And he has this very funny moves/reactions when he loses the game he's playing.. Like out of a sudden singing the Sheng Shiong theme song... Or start to rub his ears, and sometimes, even resort to dancing like an ape! Haha.. We kept laughing at his moves... He's so funny...

31st March...

Back to work... Monday blues... Urgh.. Need I tell more?

He who made me happy (The Truth)

He who made me happy, doesn't want to be my prince... And so be it...

He made me happy nonetheless.... And mom spotted Skinny R yesterday, he walked the opposite direction at the first sight. Ridiculous!

Now I'm left wondering what he wants from me.... KI suggested me to make a report... He who made me happy suggest bringing someone to talk things out, once and for all...

I dunno... Can't he just leave me alone?!

-Will the prince please come to my rescue?!-

He who made me happy (Clarification)

He who made me happy wasn't KI... He who made me happy was someone else.. It's sad to confess this... But the truth always hurt, doesn't it...

He, who made me happy,worry more when I tell him problems I face with the recent crisis being that Skinny R has came back looking for me which is incredibly scary. He was prepared to send and fetch me if need be... KI questioned me why I never talked to Skinny R, sounded more like KI's siding Skinny R... I hated that...

Yeah.. And Mr's dad got diagnosed with a terrible virus.. Hope he stays strong throughout the process.. May a miracle come, wish him all the best.. Will pray for him too...

I think this is all that I need to tell...

-Will my prince come to my rescue?-

He who made me happy...

He who made me happy last night wasn't the one whom I expect. He who made me happy was not measured by the time he spent with me and how he did. He who made me happy was not measured by what he paid for me. He who made me happy was the one who has been around the longest despite my contemplating status.

Despite all that miseries I've been through, he never failed to make me smile and feel special in my very own way. Despite all the let-downs I've given him, he never failed to still be there just in case. He could have been the one, but one whom was never given a chance, space and time that was needed.

I dunno what I should do... Oh have I told you, KI is down with chicken pox.. I probably have.. Anyways, he keep asking if I can come by to keep him company, and I amazingly keep saying No with no sense of guilt- which felt right. And he on the other hand, did not blow like how I expect him to.

I always think that someone would eventually come, take my hand and end all these miseries and confusion that I'm having.... To think that there's even someone who would like to take me, is just a dream build only to be shattered...

That's it.. I better get back to work.. Enough said...

To adopt or not to adopt....

I'm just keeping my options open. I am not entirely sure if I'd ever get married again, and I'm giving myself ample time to think of the available options.

I came across the idea of adopting a baby, but the procedures will kill me financially... Besides, I won't want to adopt and then decide it's too difficult for me to handle. I'll put this thought on hold till I'm really ready and sure of my path.

I finally told what I had in mind to KI. Told him what was the right thing to do at this moment of time, and the rest is up to him. If he listens, then it's all for his own good. If he doesn't, it'll just mean that the good will come later or never at all..

Anyways, I met up with B like after so many years of not talking to her due to the busy schedules we all have. We ended up talking about the people in our primary school and such. It was nice knowing someone for more than 12 years..

Sharmie must have just landed from the trip to Vietnam.

I'm still at home, so sick, throat hurts, nose blocked... Body aches... and head's spinning...

I guess I really ought to rest.... Nyte!

The day KI met my mom....

It was weird when I think about it... Never thought KI would actually meet my mom... It happened anyway, and they went along pretty well...

Apparently I was the one who wasnt quite sure if it was really the right thing to do, but well, what's done is done. I cant change the past... Perhaps it's meant to be this way...

KI has been texting me everyday since. Maybe it's just us being apart for so long that made him see the need to text me and to make sure I'm still there for him, I dunno...

I've been working late for the past week. So much work, so much changes in such a short period of notice.. And a lot has happened outside my project world that I couldnt help but notice. It was nice knowing that it wasnt just me and that it was really that one engineer who just aint professional enough..

Anyways, there's this junior that was sort of under me who looks like MidKnight. The way he smiles, especially.. And his humour... Thank god, I was busy enough to not watch him or engage in too long a conversation with him, else I'd probably fall and go goo goo gaga at his face. That'd be so embarassing for me then to even show up at work... Anyways, MidKnight gave me that question mark remark again... insecurity or uncertainty? That's what.

I couldnt define. Am I just insecure with who's around me and with me, or was it just uncertainty of the person who's around and with me is the right one for me?

Well, let's just wait and see... What's meant for me will be there for me, and what wasn't will leave eventually...

Oh, my financial advisor has came to see me with great news, my investment has grown a massive 18% over the 18months. And I'm cancelling the one with prudential so he can take care of that portion for my retirement for two reasons. 1 he took better care of it than prudential and 2 I trust him more, besides, I've got bad experience with Prudential before... And I dun quite know why I proceeded with that initially.

What else shall I update... Hmmm... I guess that's it for tonight.