Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Wonder and Ponder....

At times, I wonder what my mistakes are and where I had gone ultimately wrong... I dunno when I will ever learn my lesson... I had gone through deep falls in the pits, gone through the lock-ups and left in the darkness... And as soon as I see the light again, I just go around and offer myself to fall again...

I am not stupid, not naive... Just too kind... Just wanting to help others... I dunno why I always want to help others when I can't even help myself. I dunno why I'm giving so much to others, and not any for myself...

I tried to erase my past, maybe that's why I keep forgetting the "lessons learnt" portion of life... Don't ask me why I attempt to erase my past...

What was I thinking when I offered all these goodwill by financial means? Was it because I knew how vulnerable it feels when one is out of cash? Why do I always offer to switch places and be the poorest when I could jolly well be the richest?

I am running out of motivation at work when I found out that it wasn't gonna be me transferred to Aussie. It was someone else... and it seemed to have confirmed... But maybe this is a good thing, I have got a degree to chase and another year to go before I get my passport, so hopefully another opportunity rise for me at a better time for me to seize and just fly across the border to work and be alone...

I really ought to sleep now.. Have got two projects waiting for me tomorrow morning..

Good night, fellas...

And oh, thanks, Mr, for dropping by with valuable advice as usual..

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous9:41 PM

    Never mind about the opportunity in Australia. You are still very young and relatively new to the company. Many more opportunities will come your way. Be patient- Mr. Consider this famous quote - "Success is the ability to go from
    one failure to another
    with no loss of enthusiasm."
    - Sir Winston Churchill

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