Been feeling down...

And I'm going down further. I dunno why.. I feel so trapped. I felt so bad, so useless, so selfless... I dunno why I've crying to sleep, been crying when i woke up, been crying whenever I talk about love. Maybe it's the phobia of being hurt once more. Or maybe I'm just being insecure.

I dunno.. But I haven't been feeling good lately.. Don't ask me why, I simply don't know. Maybe physically I'm fine, but I'm emotionally confused and unstable. I don't know how far I can go anymore. I don't know how long I can last anymore. I simply feel so trapped.

My head hurts thinking so much. Yet I can't stop my thoughts coming. One after another.. I even thought of the worst that could have possibly happened. What is happening to me? Why has life became so hard to go by? Have I grown weaker by the day? Or have I been just so sick of myself? My head truly hurts. I seriously dunno what is going on..

I've been breaking down every now and then... No doctor can fix this, no counsellor can counsole me.. Nobody can help me for I have no idea what's bothering me in the first place.